It bothers me that so many easily follow the indoctrination of churches in supporting oppression and wicked world system. So many have been indoctrinated. Being out of churches in the long term sometimes can grow difficult. You do wonder where you "fit in", you question yourself. I try to connect with individuals I can, church goers or not, but it's hard. I feel disenfranchised from the "Christian" world. How do I stand as a Christian when most of what is seen as "Christian" by the world is so evil to me?
I've had to take some of these things to God in prayer. Maybe you have too.