Thursday, April 20, 2017

Orthodox Rod Dreher's "The Benedict Option" Promoted by Christianity Today

The Benedict Option

The culture wars and Dominionism is growing extreme. In the first video, Dreher, tells us Christians are in "exile" from our pagan secular culture, and the best option for Christians who want to live "lives of virtue" is to withdraw and form their own "communities". I find this idea of structured community, interesting given that spontaneous community in America especially among mainstream culture has failed. In the churches I have visited at least locally, I see no more spontaneous community. Everything is planned, formal and authority from the top down. Be careful of what sounds good but is not.

The church system is rapidly going Communitarian, as someone who has needed "charity" at times in the form of church food pantries and co-ops, the churches are intertwining with  governmental, corporate and other groups. At a recent food co-op, we had a visiting nurse and a local job's program person show up to the meeting with the distribution of food. Among the church helpers, is this false, that if we "become more responsible" or "work harder" our poverty will end. There is no discussion of the economic realities of American life today. Even the odd class blindness that most poor people unless disabled are already working seems to have escaped our middle class and above benefactors, as they seem to think mowing some lawns or fast food work is going to rescue people from poverty. They don't realize most in the room are already working for minimum wage.  They are selling everything that isn't nailed down already. Economic despair and the realities of our lives remains suppressed. There's little free speech.

I told my husband, "while we will go when we need to help" and desire to stay polite, we have to be sure to protect our privacy. These are people who will not understand an older man who can't stand for more then 10 minutes due to vein problems, and his work needs. The idea of the "Religious experts" getting together to form "Communities of virtue" scares me. Imagine the "rules", the "pious" would unleash among their set apart exiles.

The idea of some removed "Christian" community as a bulwark against the unbelieving hordes sounds like the dystopian novel "Handmaid's Tale", not only will they have the  subjugated women, they will have the Catholic inspired neo-feudalism to go along with it. 

Do you remember Fanatic for Jesus's other blog, "The Communitarian Trap"? The church system is rapidly going Communitarian. The idea of "Christian" communes or "Utopias" such as what the Shakers set up is nothing new, but you wonder about new marriages between government and churches and neo-feudal set-ups like what is proposed in Dreher's book.

 The Communitarian Trap defined Communitarianism thusly:

"Communitarianism is a global agenda toward world government. It uses a coalition of government, business, and church who shore up the social, moral, and political environment, while slowly robbing the freedom of the participants. A Communitarian adopts and advocates concepts such as a cooperative spirit of community, selfless commitment to community service, and the duty to work for “the common good.” It's tied from the U.N. directly to Agenda 21, the Third Way, Common Purpose, laws, community objectives, Total Quality Management, education, food delivery systems, and the collectivist thinking pattern of the global community. It uses the Hegelian Dialectic to create the synthesis needed to develop the New World Order - and ultimately the totalitarian utopia of the Elite's New Atlantis.

In the first video, Dreher advocates for Christians to separate from mainstream American culture, and tells us that only "culture" can save Christianity.  The many verses that warn against the "love of this world" from scripture contradict his philosophies that are very much of this world. This is advanced Domininionism. The message being that Christians must rule, and build their own kingdoms on this earth.  Around the 10:39 mark he quotes an early church historian Robert Lewis Wilkin.."that apologetics and intellection cannot save Christianity only culture can. By culture I do not mean high culture, Box B high mass Caravaggio as a colleague of St Matthew I mean the total harvest of thinking and feeling to use TS Eliot's phrase the pattern of inherited meanings and sensibilities encoded in rituals, laws, languages and practices and stories that can order and inspire the behavior thoughts and inspirations of a Christian people."  That just sounds like a nice way to advertise some thought control.

In the second video, Fox news interviews Dreher. He mentions the "catastrophic" departure of millennials from churches and Christianity. This actually happened with Generation X. To be frank, most of the young, have become far beyond disgusted with the "culture wars" especially in a culture where our economic disenfranchisement has become so acute. The reality is many of the young have rejected Christianity as a whole. The culture wars actually helped. I was planning an article to do soon, where I predict a "church" bubble bursting like the college bubble. People who can't afford rent, aren't going to be tithing. Millennials are not having children to fill the pews with.

 I can already see on the local level, the churches remaining strongly middle class and above, while poorer people while we may be in the church to get some food, they are not part of the church. I am someone who has left the church system but for the average poor person, they know they do not belong and stay out of the system by default. What happens when mostly more affluent Baby Boomers die off? That said Dreher will ensure more millennials racing for the door, especially with his authoritarian vision of religious life. Of course I always wonder if the race for the one world church door, will be implemented via severe economic collapse or war in America, but as things work now, the churches are not addressing the needs of the young.

Is Communitarianism or a Commune in Your Future? 

Videos three and four are interesting to me because it shows a Bruderhof young woman, advocating for the Benedict Option. Some may ask me, what's so interesting about that? I knew about the Bruderhof, because I am someone who has read quite extensively about intentional communities. They are a religious community where people live in common and their beliefs are very akin to the Hutterites in America. Intentional communities are defined by Wikipedia: "An intentional community is a planned residential community designed from the start to have a high degree of social cohesion and teamwork. The members of an intentional community typically hold a common social, political, religious, or spiritual vision and often follow an alternative lifestyle.". The Bruderhof is a religious one, they share housing, meals and a very close and social lifestyle.

While I know the new world order, is going to use arranged communities and intentional communities [aka today's modern communes], I have had a personal interest in that way of life. Modern American life for many and especially the poor has become very empty.  One ponders escape to a better place.  In my case, I wondered if any true independents and spontaneous associations existed outside the "communitarian" system. I even had fantasies about finding a place that would accept someone with severe chronic health problems but my husband's response to these alternative lifestyles was an unequivocable, "NO, I am not going to live with a thousand brothers and sisters".

I fantasized about finding a loving community to join where someone of my Christian views would be welcomed, but I never acted on this, I was too sick and disabled.  I also noticed someone who renounced Catholicism and the ecumenical vision for Christianity probably wouldn't be too welcomed either. Why am I sharing this? Well in lonely American culture, these new ways of life seem VERY ATTRACTIVE and were/are to me personally. I believe as society goes into more economic and other chaos, selling these ideas will not be hard. As the economy in America crumbles and life for many becomes more hard, people are going to be seeking "new solutions".

Sadly human reality usually steers towards wickedness, this is NOT new stuff that Dreher is selling, American Utopianism especially of the "Christian flavor" took off in the 19th century, with the Shakers leading the charge. Back then these communities also were run like "communes" with new social rules and ways of life. Sadly a majority went into major corruption with false leaders, religious and spiritual abuse, and extreme doctrines. The Shakers died out renouncing all sex and marriage. There was a lot of abuse with wolves in sheep's clothing claiming power and control over people and many grew into out and out cults.

I even looked myself into co-housing, because life in America especially for a childless older couple without a family can feel very isolating but for some reason, they all seem to be relegated to the wealthy and for those of a certain ideological bent. I looked at "Christian" communities and had a fascination with them, on an intellectual level, so yes I knew about the Bruderhof. It does not surprise me that one of their own, is supporting Dreher's book or that Dreher visited one Bruderhof community in America called Fox Hill. [see video #3] Perhaps there is a planned marriage of "Christian" intentional communities with Dreher's vision of set apart Christian villages and communities. Here one sees the ecumenical movement in action as Orthodox meets Ana-baptist.

The Benedict Option has become a best-selling book and made the cover of Christianity Today. Definitely these view-points are being pushed by some powerful interests. The rooms full of wealthy academics and others are on display in the videos.  The question now is to ask Why?  What are they planning?

I asked in 2013, "Is Communitarianism or a Commune in your future?" In 2013, the blogger on The Communitarian Trap, warned about the efforts to turn Christians into an army of workers for the new United Nations sustainability and social justice efforts:

The Hands and Feet of Christ and the Identifying Marks of a Communitarian Social Justice Agenda.

This is definitely one direction the one world religion is building, with different denominations joining together. Rick Warren got this ball rolling. Evangelicals now take no issue with a vision of Christian life based on a Catholic religious order.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

War With Syria?

Trump lied. Are you surprised? I'm not. He promised his voters he would end the "USA as policeman of the world" nonsense. Nope he's another "owned asset" continuing the neo-con war agenda of Bush, Cheney and company as planned in the Plan for the New American Century. The Middle Eastern wars are to be continued. Some Trump voters have expressed outrage over this. Well, they got played.
The globalist march is not to be ended. Iraq, Afghanistan, Somalia, Libya, and now Syria and soon to be Iran. General Wesley Clark warned of "The Pentagon's New Map" wars years ago.  Per usual lies and propaganda are used to "sell war". The would be clashes with Russia, are a disturbing part of the puzzle. They tried pushing war with Syria since 2013 and well now they could be getting their wish.


Thursday, April 6, 2017

Phoenix Preacher Becomes an Anglican

Why I am {Becoming} an Anglican.

Phoenix Preacher or Michael Newnham used to be a Calvary Chapel pastor.

His blog warned of many Calvary Chapel scandals after he left. He is now becoming an Anglican. Often over the years I have talked about how the deficiencies of evangelicalism lead some right back into the Catholic, and liturgical church system. One of his commenter's wrote; "I like my freedom way too much to be an Evangelical “christian” (small case on purpose). Well with all the Dominionism and authoritarianism shoved down people's throats on the religious right, I'm not going to argue with that guy. Phoenix Preacher [interesting name] is basically entering the left/liberal wing of the Catholic church. Anglican and Episcopal services which I have visited in my past, match, the Catholic mass very closely.

It is sad to read the comments and how many became fed up with the superficiality of false evangelical teachings and churches and how this led them right back into Rome's gaping maw. Religion is like politics, choose your side, "right or left", evangelical/Protestant or Catholic. Both the red and blue pill are poison. Us outliners who have left the system, it's hard I know. We have supposedly "invented our own religion" when all we did was get saved and actually read the Bible. It's sad to see thinkers fall for Rome's lies and false traditions over and over again.

Other mentions of Phoenix Preacher

Growing Number of Christians Don't Go to Church

Growing Number of Americans Love Jesus but Don't Go to Church, Barna Finds
Growing Number of Americans Who Love Jesus Don't Go to Church

"Barna has released a report on the first of a two-part exploration of faith and spirituality outside the church, looking at the "fascinating segment of the American population who, as the saying goes, 'love Jesus but not the church.'"


One-tenth of the population comprises those who self-identify as Christian and who strongly agree that their religious faith is very important in their life, but are "dechurched," meaning they have attended church in the past, but haven't done so in the last six months or more, the Barna study says, adding that only seven percent of the population belonged to this category in 2004."


They found 10% of self identifying Christians admitting they don't go to church. I believe there's definitely people in my boat and many reader's who have seen through the church system and have abandoned it. 

Monday, April 3, 2017

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Goodbye To Fundamentalism!

I still am a Christian. I still believe in God's Word. I am sure many would consider many of my beliefs "classically fundamentalist" when it comes to belief in God's Word, I see fundamentalism as just another "ism" to kick to the curb.

That said I have to be honest on this blog and have to admit, that I no longer consider myself a fundamentalist, and my ongoing division with the religious right and the rest has grown stronger. How much of "fundamentalism" in America has absolutely nothing to do with God or Christianity and has become about nothing but "control", "fear" and "punishment".

It's sometimes scary because I know I am in a place that "defies" the labels. It can make communication more tougher. People want to figure out where a person is coming from and the short-hand labels serve as an easy marker. Many of us who have left the church system sometimes do feel like we are floating out in space. People ask us, "What are you?" and besides saying "Christian" what do you tell them?

Dealing with that spiritual abuser and false "deliverance" person has led me to some more self examination and theological musings. It has changed me not only to have left the last IFB in the last 18 months, but also that whole process and examining spiritual abuse issues. I hope I never have been spiritually abusive to anyone judging them on high, I definitely have examined some of my own tactics.  I don't want to be like that person who messed with me and preached legalism and religiosity beyond measure. She probably was a closet Satanist but there's many who believe themselves to be Christians causing a lot of damage to people. They take self righteousness to new heights and the Bible warns about those people with the "appearance of godliness". There's a lot of people being hurt by false religion and legalists and I never want to be one of those doing the damage to someone else.

Recently I have been in some strong spiritual battles, I have even feared my own falling away they have been so bad. Some unanswered prayers have piled up and my own relationship with God has entered a very troubled area. Imagine the metaphor of a marriage when it comes to God. There have been arguments, railings and slammed doors and then apologies and repentance, but then more arguments. It has been a mess. Some of the arguments with God even had to do with "how my life has turned out" and feelings of deep grief. I have to apply SOME OF THINGS I MYSELF warned about on this blog years ago, where false fundamentalists teach things like "a good life here" means you are "blessed by God".  I suppose real communication is better then trying to be fake in front of God. Spiritual tests and battles will come to people. 

I have battled dealing with feeling that God does not love me which I posted on already and trying to stand on scripture to fight Satan's lies. I have overcome some of these problems but still remaining in some struggle. It is related to personal and other issues. False fundamentalism can damage someone's relationship with God. It did me. That spiritual abuser planted some terrible seeds, and almost could have succeeded in destroying my faith. Spiritual abuse has repercussions and I have faced them. Those who speak only judgment and no kindness and love can drive a wedge between someone and God. Fundamentalism in America has become nothing but. The love is gone. Love is an issue I am thinking on a LOT lately and Love between me, God and others.  Choosing between cold people who claim they stand on sound doctrine and have no love, and the mushy world of liberal "love" where anything goes is not much of a choice is it?

I think about people who walked from God deeming God "their enemy" because He did not bless them or their lives became full of more problems. Its a lot of people. "Perfect" Fundamentalist Frank and Francine with their Quiverful family and white-picket fence lives and Moral Majority culture wars, have sent many people fleeing what they think is Christianity. Some people just want to have some love, and comfort and feel like God cares about them. The regular world sees "Christian" fundamentalists as evil and while some are in that category of being offended by true servants of the Lord, giving them the gospel , many see the power-hungry, mean and others using religion to bash people in the face, make money and get power.

I know the religious right world is a world I have warned of for years on this blog but it is a world I know I will never fit in. In many ways I never fit in the "fundamentalist" world either though I tried for years to find a place in the IFB churches with my first experience being more positive, and the second more negative and me changing along the way.

The fundamentalist world is JUST another system to be rejected. I have warned of the excesses of fundamentalism. I have warned of many of them for years. Many will tell you that if you reject the religious right, the anti-intellectualism, and the authoritarianism, this means you must add in the rejection of God's Word and beliefs based upon it. Some will shout that your rejection of these things means you no longer hold to scripture and Christian beliefs. They are wrong. Stand on what you know.

This is where the forced squashing into either one of the sides of the "right" and "left" religious and political matrix can become the worse. I meet fellow Christians like me sometimes who have left the "system" so to speak and the automatic reaction is that you "have turned liberal" and ready to join the world of the Presbyterian USA denomination or United Church of Christ, or the mainliner or liturgical world, and that you will want to read Sojourners. That is simply not true. This can be like walking through a thicket. Here is where you will be told, you have "formed your own religion" and if you are the "only person" who believes this way, then you have "formed your own cult". Trust me I have undergone some major self questioning ABOUT ALL OF THIS.

For those out of the religious system, maybe you have dealt with this stuff too. One person said to me, "If your beliefs are so strange, that you don't fit anywhere and cannot find one tolerable church you are in a very extreme place." This means most every other Christian holds very wrong beliefs except for YOU and this probably means you need to "rethink" your ideas and conform somewhat."

Talk about laying on the pressure. One thing they don't realize that inside, conforming would have been the easiest path. Too many have conformed from the first place and didn't say NO to the excesses, otherwise why did the churches run off the rails so much? Is the only alternative to crazed and mean "Christian" Taliban Dominionists running into the arms of those who reject scripture, and teach that all religions lead to the same place?

Yes conforming would have been the EASIEST path. I wouldn't feel so alone in this. I spent a lot of time trying to find a place where I would "fit" and "belong" and never did.  It hurt a lot. I had some dreams about THIS LIFE, that died. Because of my past history, the desire for a church "family" was very strong, but I've been enough places to know I could not just sit somewhere and digest what I was told without thinking about it and examining it. If I had found a place where open communication was allowed and iron sharpening iron, that would have made all the difference, even with minor disagreements I could have handled it, instead of just being spoon-fed from on high. I suppose those places are very rare now. I believe I myself am responsible for what I know and it's true of every person.

I'm done with fundamentalism. Right now it's not just the excesses, but the whole ball of wax.

One wants to seek after God's love, and lover for others too. I don't mean in the mushy enabling of evil way either but where we feel love and able to give love to others. The power and control matrix of what passes for "Christanity" today has reached absurd levels.

I am not sure where I am going with all this, I am in my own path of exploration. Where am I going? My mind is changing on some things but definitely not the truth of God's Word and the gospel of Jesus Christ.

She Has a Point

Self-Centered Religion Fashions a Self-Centered God
March 11th, 2017
American Evangelicals and Fundamentalists are often about “a relationship” with God, which, as one critic has observed, is a step better than being unconcerned with God. But relationship-based religion has got some problems.

First, if my religion is based on me having a great relationship with God, then if I don’t have a great relationship with Him, God has failed. If I have tried everything, offered everything (including my hours playing on the XBox) as praise to Him, tried to see every single trouble from the coffee not brewing properly to the toilet backing up as God taking action in my life to develop my relationship with Him, then when I get frustrated, mystified, and pissed-off, it’s God’s fault.

American Christanity talks a lot about "being broken" by God. You'll have a hard time finding the Bible speaking this way about believers. Christ was broken for us.

To get around that attitude about God, relationship seekers have formulated their own code, thanks in great part to the likes of Tozer and Murray, in which they talk about God breaking us, shattering us, maiming us, clobbering us, spitting on us, kicking us down the steps, letting the air out of our tires, and so on. Does this sound like blasphemy to you? Well yes, it is blasphemy. It’s definitely blasphemy. Any religion founded on the idea that God breaks us and shatters us for as long as He likes, while in addition He sends all of life’s littler vexations to drive us batty as we crawl blindly after Him, wondering what He wants us to do to fix the relationship, until He has reduced us to jelly in order to scoop us up and inject us into the mold that He chooses is blasphemous. It’s also imbecilic. It’s horrible, and it’s repulsive. And, way down deep at it’s heart, it makes man the center of the religion.
We who are in Christ have peace with God. And God established our peace with God, through Christ.

Evangelicals and Fundamentalists have, in many ways, lost the point of it all. God has not elected jellys to mold into shapes at His whim. He has elected saints, heroes of the faith, to know Him through obedience. And, to share in their lot and be their salvation, He has become one of us, leading us along the path of doing good, withstanding hardship with dignity, loving others all the way to death. That’s a far cry from the self-centered, jelly-based religion of American Christianity. We have not been put here to be broken, smashed, and shattered until we sit, absolutely stone still in resignation until the next blow of the hammer does or doesn’t come. We have been put here to open the doors of the prisons, make devils flee before us in our Master’s name, break the chains that oppress, and throw down evil in high places.

Are we going to suffer as we do these things? Well….yes (as in Duuuh!). God Himself when He walked among us, the Son of Man, suffered. He suffered all the nuisances and nonsenses of life, and He suffered poverty. Then He suffered rejection, abandonment, and crucifixion. He didn’t suffer these things because God the Father was breaking Him in order to have a better relationship with Him. Christ suffered because He put Himself into a fallen world under the dominion of sin. He suffered a lot of the nonsense of this life simply because it is the lot of fallen man to suffer. And though Christ was unfallen, He took on our lot in order to be one with His People. Furthermore, He suffered because He brought love and light into the world, and all the forces and energies of the world oppose such things. But He showed us that even as He participated in our suffering, that we His People can use our sufferings to participate in His sufferings. And we don’t have to live in terms of our pain. We can live in terms of love, mercy, and kindness.

God’s first and greatest commandments to us, echoed by Christ, are to love God first, and love others second. And the two commandments hinge on each other.

 Years and years ago I used to see Jeriwho on that Fighting Fundamentalist board, which I still believe has many interlopers on it. She seemed sincere and was someone who came out of fundamentalism herself.  I didn't always understand what she was writing about as I was new to fundamentalism myself just coming out of the Catholic church. I was a different person though I definitely had some empathy for those who suffered abuses she exposed. I would go on to expose things on this blog that outraged me too in the fundamentalist world.

Those were years I was still in the first IFB so we did not agree on everything. I don't agree with everything now, I believe she attends a conservative Presbyterian church but she has a point about the false fundamentalists who teach a self focused [I have written about this as the "best life now" theology] faith where everything is about rules, and toeing the line to "keep blessings" in this world. Her other writings seem to have many truths about the fundamentalist world.

 I have thought of the fundamentalist world a lot and about my own experience with that spiritual abuser and asked myself, "Where is the love?" Isn't God supposed to be love and not just a cruel being, who smacks us around if we step out of line or listen to a secular song? That said, rule based authoritarian people who worship a "God" of cruelty operate out of the desire to "control and punish others" which sums up so much of the religious political and religious right. They believe in a "God" that wants to break them, instead of God who said this:

1 Peter 5:7 KJV Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you

Botkin Girls Tell Us Boys are Complicated

See this post for context:
10 Years Later The Botkin Sisters Remain Unmarried: The Failure of the SAHD Movement

 It's sad seeing these stunted 30 somethings who have never dated or married telling us that men and relationships are complicated. Their talk is vague. There is nothing wrong with never marrying and being single but in a world where the Dominionists and others consider women only worthwhile if they have married or had children, everything is focused on that, even if you are like these two, and never have gone out into the world to do service for the Lord or work in a career.

Why are they still focused on "relationships?" instead of living the best single life, they can have? Why are they still giving advice that has failed? Beyond the issues, that their Daddy never let them grow up or obtain their own adult lives, their focus in life seems to be remaining bitter "Spinsters". Remember how I wrote I thought myself an old maid and I did not marry until 29 in the other Botkin article linked above. I have health and other problems impacting my dating.

Before I met my husband via a newspaper single ad, I had decided that if I did not meet someone to marry, I was going to focus on life as a single person instead of beating myself up over my "failure" to couple up. In my case back in those days, I was a teacher, so I had a life of "my own". Why isn't that taught to young Christian women? Where one can find and have a single life if that is what happens?

I was not yet a Christian but there's a lot of harm being done to young women where they are told they are "worthless" or "failures" for not marrying or having children. This is related to the point that now there seems to be no place in the churches for people with no families and that applies to me with no family of origin in my life outside a few cousins who live hundreds of miles away and no children of my own. To me, this video is extremely sad, these two have been so indoctrinated that their only worth rests in their relationship to men, that they are now doing videos in their early 30s, about how "relationships with men are complicated" and they have never had one.

Their advice definitely has not worked for them. Their constant "guarding of their hearts", sheltering, and rigid rules in relating to men, has helped to forever ensure their single status. They are afraid of men watching this video and see them in a stereotypical "gendered" fashion. Maybe they are making a reference to popular vampire shows, when they draw one man with fangs, but it says something to me about how they view men. The reference to parents giving spiritual guidance of course is the lie of the patriarchy movement. How many fathers "approve" the men their daughters marry?

The idealized visions in that world of family life and relationships are doomed for failure. When they draw a woman wearing a burka, don't they realize they are being told to live culturally like Taliban women? There is denial too, of love and sexual attraction for idealized pure and platonic relationships. If all attraction is squashed, how would anyone end up married unless one switches to a system of arranged marriage? At least the Orthodox Jews with all their rules arrange marriages, these women have been raised in a false system that almost ensures their unmarried status.

I believe the SAHD movement will die out just based on the fact many women will end up like the Botkin sisters. Mr. Duggar informally started arranging his daughters marriages. In this case their father must have never wanted them to marry and they kept obeying instead of growing up and getting their own lives, and we see the results first hand. It's sad to see them still trying to sell advice that has massively failed in their own lives.

 1 Cor 7:7-8 For I would that all men were even as I myself. But every man hath his proper gift of God, one after this manner, and another after that.

College Makes Women Stupid?

I'm confused he says people who don't read are shallow. Doesn't college advance "reading"? I wonder about people who have no interest in the world around them but then says college makes women stupid. Not every class at college is a liberal-based woman's studies class. Sure there are false world views pushed in college, but to tell people not to get educated especially in a world that demands college educations to get any jobs, is absurd.

 The anti-intellectualism just makes Christians look bad and all we have to do is look at the Duggar adults to seem gaping wide holes of knowledge and a serious lack of reading to see the effects of poor education. Do these types even realize that a lot of our most important colleges like Harvard have Christian roots in their history? They didn't have pastors then saying "education is bad". Christianity was compatible with knowledge. This is the kind of stuff that gets Christians labeled as Neanderthals who hate learning. It makes me sick.

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Enabling of the Evil in Churches

". . .We've been indoctrinated to believe that really faithful Christianity is a continuous flow of positive feelings toward anyone, no matter how evil, when this is not what the Bible teaches at all. Read the Psalms to learn that godliness is not a continuous flow of good feelings toward evildoers.
Satan wants us to feel guilty so that he can keep us enslaved, entrapped, and suffering as long and as much as possible, but it's really okay not to enjoy the presence of someone who continually mistreats you." ~Valerie Jacobsen

 I never can be in a so called "conservative" or evangelical church again as they support my oppressors. Have you ever wondered why the evil seem so loved? Doing this blog as long as I have, their lasting power even in so called "Christian" circles is cemented in. "Christianity" due to the sickening "religious right" is now being connected to political cold hearts.


Why were death panels considered so bad when Obama was in charge but now the "evangelical" Republican world remains silent as Paul Ryan and others go for the jugular of the poor, disabled and elderly? Don't they realize that if Medicaid and Medicare are cut to nothing, millions won't have medical care. I almost died in my 20s from lack of medical care and insurance. Sure, the ER would scrape me off the ground and get me breathing again but then I was sent out into the street to fend for myself.  In other words, they got the "Christian" world now cheering for the defacto death panels. The last type of person I want to talk to, is another one who tells me health care is a privilege.  

I got sick of being told for years to grovel before wicked men and to make excuses for them. The churches that said astrology loving Reagan was a caring man who wanted to change the world for the better were wrong. The reality was he started this country on it's downward descent. Now I am supposed to believe a blonde raving narcissistic sociopath is a "Christian" and has my best interests at heart? Are you joking? Weren't you there in the 1980s when that guy was rolling around raving about "sexy women" and bragging of his back-stabbing real estate deals?

We are supposed to "embrace" the vampires, with smiles on our faces ignoring evidence right in front of ourselves, while these wicked men run roughshod over us and gaslight us to death. Fool me once shame on you [cough Bush] Fool me twice shame on me [Trump]. What is wrong with the "Christian" evangelical world? It sickens me. My level of outrage is high, knowing because of my personal circumstances, I'll be one of the first for the death panel "culling" and the Republican pogrom against the poor. My hope remains in the Lord, but I see the suffering of others happening now, and there will be more to come in the future.

This applies to the personal too. Some ask why is there so much sex abuse in churches, over the years far more then just the Catholic priests got exposed, and well one reason, is many are taught to enable and coddle the evil. There is something in human nature where they love the "strong" men, the tough and the mean. This is why we never get dictators who are "nice" while they keep the trains running on time but go on killing sprees. The clueless "Christian" set always seem to vote for the meanest guy in the room.


One thing I have noticed in churches is the abused often are shamed, they never are defended. Their abusers get all the mercy. This is why Trump's crushing of the national weak and vulnerable is embraced by the churches. Right now in most churches, I would be judged as the "bad" one for fleeing abusers. Have any of you ever heard Ephesians 5:1 ever preached in the churches because I sure have not. How many pastors have preached, FLEE THE WICKED? Instead we are told to forgive them, give a chance, especially the ones who NEVER REPENT.

Eph 5.7 Be not ye therefore partakers with them.

The evil that is enabled on the NATIONAL level is enabled on the PERSONAL level too. People bow down before the wicked they are afraid of them and do everything to keep them happy while throwing their victims under the bus. I've seen those dynamics too many time. Lack of empathy and feelings are praised while feelings and conscience are diminished.  I can always tell when a narcissist has entered the room because everyone is bowing over backwards to please them and give them the attention and supply they soak up like sponge. Since so many pastor-ships run on getting attention and money, a certain personality type has come to dominate within the pulpits. There is a reason in our wicked culture the wicked have ascended to great heights with the use of media and the consolidation of wealth. Watching churches praise the most wicked is beyond sickening. We are told constantly to shut down our minds and "give understanding" and to "compromise". 

Pastors preach complete nonsense. I sat in the last IFB being told I should set variance aside with family and forgive and "go back". I left a connected family that openly mocked the gospel--once demanded my silencing of anything related to the gospel and demanded a commitment to Roman Catholicism to "deserve" the good 6 figure jobs and other benefits they passed between themselves. I walked from almost my entire family with only a few cousins left. I dealt with people involved in complete and utter wickedness and there I sat in a church pew, having freed myself from abusers, narcissists and sociopaths to get the usual dead lie that it was my "responsibility" to forgive and forget and if I did not go back and re-welcome the wicked in my life, God was going to deny me forgiveness. How did this pair with Jesus's warnings about divisions from family? How about the multiple exhortations to flee the wicked and have nothing to do with them?

The one thing that angers me the most is the constant DEADENING of consciences. One is told to ignore intuition, or even the small still voice of the Holy Spirit. I have had God warn me directly. Even with the spiritual abuser, I had dreams I worried about as I sought to disengage myself from her. I was warned of one woman who was local and whose son was a public and open Satanist [OTO member etc] and it's good I listened. No church has ever preached one simple basic about the wicked, they seek to appear "good". THEY WEAR MASKS. Christians are left as completely naive, told to shut down their minds and brains and take everyone and everything at face value. Why do you think the rotten preachers who even get "found out" are able to have second come backs? It's this attitude that enables them. The pastors all the time make excuses for the wicked and the wicked world system. 

If you ever have been a victim of a crime or had a sociopath in your life, the first thing about them is they try to appear as your "friend" or if they directly are abusing you, they are convincing everyone around them how "loving" they are. Those who don't listen to their guts, that warning cry inside pay dearly for it. The Bible wants people to listen to their conscience and God-given discernment and warning bells. We don't need pastors behind the pulpit telling us all how everyone is basically good.

I've written about the rarefied world presented from church pulpits, the one where one's family is always loving, there's a good job to be had by all, and an idealized world. You see this nonsense expressed especially in the Quiverful world. I know this blog offends a lot out there, because I have said it over the years, a faith that doesn't stand up to the real world is no faith at all. 

Scripture warns us in multiple places there are people of absolute darkness. 

Isaiah 6:20 For, behold, the darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness the people: but the LORD shall arise upon thee, and his glory shall be seen upon thee.

Many in the churches want their people living in fantasy land. It is a fantasy land that leaves them vulnerable to deceit and narcissistic seared people who wish to exploit them. It is a world of spiritual abuse. It's a fantasy land where politicians all have our best interests at heart, all parents are loving, no one's trying to rob or rape you or spiritually destroy you. I always felt I was kind of intense for church people, sitting in the pews, listening to the women talk about their house decorating, being told that Bush was a great president, being told that I should seek "self-reliance" in a world where my body had failed and jobs were taken away from my husband at the drop of a hat. I often felt like a false fantasy world was being shoved down my throat that had little bearing on my actual reality. I wonder if this is worse in fundamentalist churches. Their banal fantasy world of tea-time, and imaging the 1950s as an ideal time was just a covering for the enabling of evil. Let's put a "mask" on life itself and not talk about reality. This is why so many now in the evangelical churches have become flying monkey enablers for the growing tyranny and oppression in the world both political and personal. 

As a low status and disabled person in American society, in this time and place, many evangelicals are calling for my head to be put on a stake, because I've committed the "sin" of being poor and disabled. I am a member of one of the scapegoated groups among minority races and others for my dependence on Social Security. It means something when the vulnerable are always put on the political firing line and the lies reach to the ceiling. The "I got mine" Republicans don't even understand my day to day reality, I've spoken with enough of them, nor do they care. I am sure some will protest the left, but what does that even mean, when both sides have taken us to this place? Stop trying to gaslight me. I don't believe in your Ayn Rand "free market" Republican fantasies either.

This is why in as far as American evangelical churches why the poor are often shamed and told you do not deserve any medical care or food. Obamacare was far from perfect but the land of no options is basically just throwing people under the bus. On the personal level abused people, are told they must "forgive" their abusers, and they must be the one in the wrong. if you ever find yourself surrounded by sheep's in wolf's clothing sociopaths, you will find out soon as they smear and lie their way across the land, people tend to believe them more. Breaking through their lies is very difficult. Many are not interested in truth and would rather bow before power and cunning, instead of seeking truth.

Have any of you wondered why hard core evil is not discussed in the churches? Sure one hears the "safe" and constantly trotted out "cultural warrior" topics. We are all supposed to be shuddering in fear of the "homosexuals", even though most sit in pews with only a few closeted ones but have you ever wondered why various soul murderers, liars and others are not warned about? Could it be there's too many in the pulpit who would get exposed if the core basics about malignant narcissism were taught?  Would too many busy-bodies and other predators in the congregation get outed with their false masks and conniving? How much spiritual abuse could happen in a climate where people were called out to be honest and truthful instead of showing a false self righteousness. What about a world where Christians could be REAL?

The churches warn of the homosexual, tattooed, and non-believer crowd, as the "boogie-men" to be wary of, but to be frank, I'll take most of them over some of the church sociopaths and closet Luciferians. At least with a biker or a gay guy you know what you are getting, a smiling snake wearing a suit, and holding a Bible can be a lot more dangerous.  There's smiling female snakes too promising "miracles", "prayers" and "deliverance", as well. A lot of non-believers tell me why they fled churches talking about how they felt judged or knives were being sharpened behind backs, I believe them. We got a whole country now under an evil spirit led by the churches.

Imaging trying to warn your average church congregation about how the wicked operate, and how they craft lies. They have been so indoctrinated by false pastors that everyone is naturally good or that true sociopaths are as rare as a one in 10 million Ted Bundy, they'll be ready to throw you out of the room for being "too negative". People don't like the delusional bubbles of their idealized evangelical world popped. Sadly in many evangelical churches, the concept of evil itself is hidden, and not even admitted. Warning of evil and evil people is "negative", it is not having the "best life now".

The worse thing about the churches though, is that when it comes to abusive people, one is told to "forgive" them even as they refuse to repent and to tolerate them. Their victims are often shamed for having unforgiving spirits for not accepting their abuse or tolerating it or remaining door-mats to it. I've never seen abusers called out in the church. One never hears about child abusers being censored or receiving church discipline. The failure towards women who suffer from domestic abuse within evangelical churches is abysmal. She is told to sit there and take it. The man is never confronted by church elders. Anna Duggar being told to stay with a serial molester and cheater, is business per usual in the church world.

I've visited and sat in many churches but I have never heard the topic of ABUSE ever dealt with in ONE church ever. If anything it is shoved under the carpet. The focus of the sermons is always for the abusers and wicked to be "forgiven" and the lucifieran politicians to be "understood". One thing to be noticed too is how the "powerful" and "high status" are lauded in the churches. One of most wicked people I ever have dealt with in my life has a high name in her Catholic church, she has the wealth and a few "good works" to show off with. There are plenty of evangelical counterparts in there with her. Proverbs 17:15 warns of those who "justify" the wicked. Trump as a wicked man is justified in our evangelical churches today along with the lesser known cadre of soul murderers and oppressors. 

One of the many reasons I won't be returning to be a member of the church system, is I cannot tolerate institutions that support my personal open economic and other oppression. I have no interest in places that have no interest in facing reality and who expect me to believe in a fantasy life that does not relate to my own life experiences and what I have battled. I have no interest in pastors, and congregations, that honor soul murderers and abusers and who can't even discern overt wickedness such as in a man like Trump. I got tired of being told to be a doormat for the wicked too.

There is an enabling of evil in the churches and it has grown.

Monday, March 20, 2017

False Prosperity Gospel Worsening

Warning, I am using this video as an example of FALSE PREACHING.

Talk about the wresting of scripture. The prosperity gospel is related to the false teaching of tithing where these false pastors promise wealth to people for giving them 10 percent of their income. He even sadly abuses Psalm 23, "I shall not want" to mean no one will be poor. Also the idea that one can pray to God about what job to take and what to major in college and go step by step so you do not end up poor in this life, is insane. That's a faith destroying message if I ever heard of one. I was praying to God to let my rust bucket car start, a couple weeks ago, it wouldn't, we got socked with another car repair. It's fixed now but according to this guy, I did something "wrong" or "forgot a prayer" and that's why I had "lack" and was then waiting for the bus. How long do people last in these churches if they are not rich? You know false theology is theology that does NOT STAND UP TO THE REALITIES OF THIS WORLD. You know there is an insanity to these false teachers and those who follow them where reality itself is DENIED.

Luke 18: 22 Now when Jesus heard these things, he said unto him, Yet lackest thou one thing: sell all that thou hast, and distribute unto the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, follow me.

23 And when he heard this, he was very sorrowful: for he was very rich.

24 And when Jesus saw that he was very sorrowful, he said, How hardly shall they that have riches enter into the kingdom of God!

25 For it is easier for a camel to go through a needle's eye, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.

Cindy Jacobs Says God Wants Christians To Be Rich So Jews Become Jealous And Convert

The false preachers actually seem to be getting worse by the day, with more nutty theology to impart. Cindy Jacobs of NAR fame mixes prosperity gospel edicts with Christian Zionism.

Church Hunters

This one had a lot of truth in humor. I'm not "church-shopping" anymore myself. Many of us here have left the church system. It does show you what people look for in churches out there. Of course, one thing I noticed is more churches seemed the same then different among a wide range of denominations.

Friday, March 10, 2017

Pope Francis Better to Be An Atheist

This is a couple weeks old, but Pope Francis sure seems to love atheism. In works-based faith, many who know they are hypocrites inside would be running to unbelief. I consider the Popes hypocritical, they preach about the poor while on their gold thrones, though this one attempts to appear more humble then the last.

Archons and Thetans

I try to expose weird stuff when I come across it, this is one of those moments.  Warning, this guy has some very extreme "theology".Some people's theologies are getting more and more out there. As we get closer more into the last days, Satanic theologies and other lies of Satan are going to hold sway.

 One thing that shocked me about this guy's video on Archon's is I kept thinking about the "thetans" of Scientology. I just read that book again called "Going Clear: Scientology, Hollywood and the Prison of Belief".

Scientologists believe they need to do "auditing" and more to clear themselves of "thetans" that have attached themselves.This Archon stuff sounds very similiar. I remember encountering the concept of Archons when I was reading my Theosophy books, and they seem to have a lot of familiarity with as the Watchers aka "Nephilim". Blatvasky  referred to them constantly in her writings.

 I saw another guy online saying that Archons feed off human energy, and that the afterlife is false, and he wrote when you go into the "white light" you are reborn into another horrible human life, to suffer so these beings can "feed" off you.

This is where Science Fiction has been an evil influence on theology,  I wrote about this many years ago but my father told he believed "God" was an "alien", remember that Star Trek movie where a "divine" force had taken over a Voyager spacecraft?" He definitely was influenced by that movie.

This guy brings up near death experiences, saying that archons lead them. I do believe near death experiences are false and led by Satan. Notice he mixes in the matrix and reality being a "hologram", that's part of the mind control to convince you reality isn't "REAL".

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Not Fitting In

"But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light;"- 1 Peter 2:9 KJV

[picture from Facebook]

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Doug Coe of "The Family" Has Died

CBN was very supportive of him as you can tell.

They Want a Theocracy: The Family

Coe Met With Pope Francis

The Cult Next Door-Bill Gothard

The Cult Next Door(Offical Trailer #4) from Youngman Films on Vimeo.

"The Cult Next Door" short documentary exposes the founder of The Institute in Basic Life Principles, Bill Gothard. The cultic group is focuses on authority and control. Gothard and the organization is now facing a multimillion lawsuit for rape and sexual assult. Sign up for the email update list. This is a good way to stay updated with the film and how to eventually view it! 
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Saturday, February 18, 2017

People Who Feel Like God Hates Them or Doesn't Love Them

[this is not a Christian video but being used to show what some people are going through]

I don't believe this man is a born again believer, please pray for him. However I have heard what he has said from many others. Under spiritual and Satanic attack, I have even thought things like he is saying. Once I mulled to my husband on a very very bad day, what if I am like Esau and God does not love me?"  You know that verse that says "Easu I have hated?"This is one thing the "PERFECT PEOPLE" false Christians have wrought. These are the people they are burdening with their oppressions and sending far away from God.

 I have been under immense spiritual attack, it is bad. It's one reason you haven't seen me on here in the last couple weeks very much.  If I didn't "know" "Christianity" was true for sure and if I didn't have the Holy Spirit prompting me with scriptural warnings in my head, it would have been worse. One big part of this spiritual attack was Satan sending the message, "God doesn't love you".  I think Satan is sending that one to a lot of people. People get beaten down by life, and you look around, and think "Why has my life gone so badly?"  Here that false deliverance minister did a number on me, I am still working through. She connected the rightness and blessings of this life to one's spiritual standing. There's a difference too between years of chronic problems and short term stuff too.

Spiritual abusers are making people feel bereft and like God doesn't love them.  I know I have warned of "Best Life" Christianity for YEARS on here, it is worsening. While many churches help the poor, those teachings are coming out in a variety of ways. This man believes that riches in this world are equal to God's love, why wouldn't he? So many of the churches teach it.

There is so much focus on being a "success" in Christianity that if your life doesn't turn out well in this world, it can be an incredible burden. Sometimes I'll go watch sermons of local churches online to get the flavor of the church world, I saw one preacher preaching about how it's great when someone rich gets saved because people can give more money to the church then and he told a story about a rich man getting saved who donated millions to the church. Could a story be any more transparent? So wonder the man in the video above thinks God hates him for not having money. He doesn't know those celebrities mostly sold their souls.

One experiences the churches with their smiling, happy, prosperous people and you ask "What about me?" I will admit it at times, I have asked "What about me too?" You hit that old age and you get "regrets". You wonder why life turned out the way it did. I did not get a normal life at all.  It is hard. God showed me some immense things, you know how I exposed so much on this blog for years, well there was personal things shown to me too. It wasn't just the public ministers and current events, it was private life too. It's one reason I departed from wicked people in my life. It was a lot to face. I was lied to for decades by "family" members, I was shown very surprising things.

God if you ask Him, will open the door and show you a lot of truth. It's hard though, sometimes things will surprise or upset you.  When I was under the spiritual attacks, I could not ignore the things God had done for me.

 I've had a lot of weird temptations too with the spiritual attack. Some of it concerns this blog and the future. One day, I had the thought over and over, I should give up this blog so I am not a hypocrite, start attending one of those friendly churches that give me and my husband food at food pantries and stop being so isolated. It's like I am told to conform over and over, and my mind says "No, No" No". I shut down these temptations but it's crazy how they come. Satan is massively using the sense of extreme isolation I am facing as a Christian. It's crazy I even have thoughts like this come out. People as we get into the last days will be under immense pressure to conform. God allows my husband to support me, even despite his spiritual status and he tells me to continue with the blog.

I am not perfect and fear fainting. I never have gone through such bad spiritual attacks.

I do know Satan uses the message, "God does not love you, and you are going to hell anyway" as an accuser of the brethren. Satan has bombarded me telling me because I have rare disfiguring illnesses and other problems that we are "bad" people and getting what "we deserve". I wish some minister out there would say "Look life is tough, some of you may end up with a life that is nothing but hardship" instead of all the false hopes and telling people God has a miracle for every problem in this world when we were warned of Tribulation. If anything I got the feeling God's children are out for the most suffering in this world.

I am happier now and settled now, but I feel like I was in a punch down-knock down fight. Even the church thing is absurd. I certainly have been in enough where I had no choice to leave or otherwise I would be forced out for opening my mouth.

I am thinking though more then just myself here though. I meet so many people, non-believers who tell me, "God does not care. This life has too much suffering." I have conversations with people like this all the time.

Some even segue over to determining that God is cruel and hates humanity or they believe in a "higher power" who is poking at his "self-created" ant farm with a stick. This is a question churches fail to answer. I tell people direct, this world is hard and Satan run. A lot of people don't like that. A few have listened though and told me, that makes the most sense.

The pastors all sugar-coat life, and so wonder no one is prepared. This place is a death factory. Sure it may have nice blue skies and some flowers but there is a reason Jesus Christ came to RESCUE US.

Galatians 1:4 Who gave himself for our sins, that he might deliver us from this present evil world, according to the will of God and our Father

The churches aren't even getting that basic right.

Right Wing Deception Comes Home To Roost

 From an atheist website

 I have talked about how for years the religious right would discredit Christians and would turn even more people away from Christianity. These are the days now where if you don't have your own relationship with Jesus Christ, "Christianity" or how it is made to appear is going to nauseate you.

 The wickedness of the right is being made apparent to the secular world. The left is wicked too. Those standing at the sidelines, it is hard to watch it all. Even with the immigrants, Trump made a giant show of stopping them midflight instead of giving a date in the future. That was for the show time and drama too, and featured oppressions as children and women were left stranded in air ports and we have seen pictures of some of the refugees in America [hmm surprised it's not Americans yet] running to the Canadian border.

 There's truth in that woman's sign. I wish she had wrote ANTICHRIST instead of "Alt Jesus" because I do not want my Lord and Savior's name maligned, but she is right about what they are teaching and promoting.

 The religious right worships money and mammon and got a sociopathic billionaire in as president. They do teach fear everyone for their racial and division games [yes the left plays the race card too from a different direction], they do teach blame the poor and ignore the sick. Even other secular countries in the West have more care for the poor and disabled then the religious right in America. Here they just want you to go die in the gutter. If anyone wants to argue this one with me, you'll lose, my husband hasn't had medical insurance in 10 years.

 It's funny to me how it's mostly liberals protesting things, and not a peep from Christians, well maybe a few independents like me, as our reality TV show president/actor who used to fire people and be rude to women on the show the Apprentice, is tearing more holes in the already imperfect safety net and setting a tone for a meaner and more wicked America. The liberals definitely have things they are wrong about too, but then they are exactly right about the "religious right".

Saturday, February 4, 2017

The NWO Hates God-Given Emotions

I saw a different commercial for this same product and was a bit worried. I have noticed an extreme trend over the last years where emotions are to be  repressed.  We live in a society now where the artist and storyteller are hated, and the soul-less technocrat is the most honored. This product seems to more about quelling the emotion of anxiety and fear, but fear has a reason to exist. Repress that one enough around toxic environments or people, your health will show it anyhow, no matter how many breathing exercises you do. Those feelings of fear are there for a reason to WARN YOU. Interesting it shows one big eye in one shot.

The focus on "mindfulness" from the New Age has entered the mainstream where one must endeavor to be calm, and relaxed 24-7 and oddly always thinking of nature scenes and perfect scenarios. I have noticed one must always separate themselves from the actual environment to make this happen. No one ever addresses changing environments or lives to be less stressful anymore but that all the plebes now on their way up to some extreme business meeting are required to go inward and practice "fantasies' in their mind to keep from freaking out. None of this is questioned. The focus on fantasy and "virtual realities" now literal to suppress emotions is part of the new world order plan.

There is a point where emotional control can help in life and is biblical, but there's a point where it seems society desires a legion of pod people who no longer feel and are so closed down, emotions have become a thing of the past. Malignant narcissistic people  or who the Bible would refer to as seared usually are cold fish. It seems now the wicked controllers of the world wants everyone else to be as cold. Emotions are hated. They must be controlled now and/or eliminated. Mind control in this world is about making everyone lose their inward conscience and closing down God-given emotions to do what you are told and to keep poker faces on for the comfort of the powerful.

Ecclesiastes 3:4 - A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

I've noticed in some dysfunctional circles, how emotions are seen as "weakness". This trend has been growing. The bible warns about people growing cold. The cold are the emotionless, frozen like icicles. Sometimes it frightens me how cold some people have grown where they no longer "feel" or have "attachment" or "love" for others. Those with emotions are seen as fodder to destroy and to hurt. People sneer at those they deem "too sensitive".  People with consciences have emotions. People without consciences only have the emotions of anger. They have destroyed all inner introspection. The "living waters" inside a person of conscience flow, while for the degenerated seared, their inner landscapes are dried out deserts, empty, and a shell. The bible tells us most of the wicked will "have their love grow cold". These deserts are cold as well, with no feeling for anyone else as the person shuts down conscience and emotions.

I was raised within a wicked family where emotions were seen as a bad thing, the only emotion allowed was anger and glee over winning over your enemies. Many of them make 6 figures and above and are very successful in this world.  Those who sell their souls prosper in this world. One thing my wicked relatives would tell me is that I was "too sensitive". If I showed compassion to someone else they got angry. Love, feelings and tears were not allowed. If I cried, I was in trouble.

I was told I was a "weak" person for having emotions and this included even the good ones like joy or love. Many wicked people hate emotions but this does not mean all reticent people are wicked.  Some people were over taught extreme emotional control, think of British aristocrats and other cultures like in Japan, where emotional control is stressed, but there is a line between cultural mandates and inner spiritual coldness.  We see this now in America as to what is deemed a "good professional". Be hard, cold, hide all emotions, and vanquish your enemies without breaking a sweat.  There is a reason now while in our society and world that is growing more evil that emotions are being repressed and stamped out. In the American Hunger Games, softness is not tolerated.

This is happening in society where emotional IQ points are handed out to the most controlled and in the churches as well, where it seems to have as few emotions as possible is the ideal. Many in the churches, from what I have experienced, are not focused on "being real" but focused on this idea of pious perfection where emotions are deemed "bad". God's truly faithful are never crying or weeping or angry or upset. In church circles, the most respected people are the ones who are "together" and never vulnerable. Many non-believers or people who attended church when young and left "Christianity" all together have talked to me about judgmental worlds where to expose any vulnerabilities meant you got eaten alive. They have spoken of "cruel" Christians. Being someone who is of very low income and with disabilities that show, in American society, I have gotten some tastes myself of what they have dealt with. I have no ability to put on the required perfect masks.

The church world for many low caste people in America is a hell of judgments and most of those judgments pertain to your "unsuitable" emotions should you ever let them slip. Poverty itself even if one can avoid homelessness by the skin of their teeth or find food to eat, the worse thing about the lack of money is not the going without, but this constant drumbeat even felt within churches about what a "bad person" you are to have "failed" in life. One will be called "bitter" and "lacking in faith" by many church people simply for having a different kind of life they do not relate to. Once in the war-loving IFB I left, I asked for prayers for a health condition and admitted "worry". I did not say anything extreme like "God has abandoned me" or anything sharp, but this so horrified the church denizens, I had two hand me books the next Sunday on trusting in God. I saw eyes rolling in heads as I broke some kind of social contract admitting worry.  There's an authoritarianism growing in fundamentalist Christianity and it goes beyond the evil sickening politics, there's so many lines not to be crossed. People who face serious depression and other problems in church, know that in most churches admitting them, means social and other destruction.

You get the feeling many now consider emotions dangerous. You are to be stifled. Social isolation grows among many down trodden people in America where the shaming never ends. There's no one for poor people to talk to especially in mainstream culture, about what you are going through. Saying the Emperor has no clothes, is the soonest way to find yourself in even hotter water.  The best life mantras and memes, force a certain emotional mask to be worn like the below. Don't worry about the future, sure we are supposed to trust in God, but one can see the strain of the "prosperity gospel" and keeping a smile always on one's face below the message, "don't be the kind of woman who worries". That's a strange tattoo for a Christian by the way.

This ties into the "think positive" nonsense, now you must not only "think positive" you better "feel positive" too. In watching all those Leah Remini shows and others exposing Scientology, I noticed how all the auditors wanted people to close down their emotions. That seemed to be the common theme.  Obedience was instilled to a great degree too. The training seemed to be about having people squash all emotions, even when they described one exercise of being shouted at for hours while not being allowed to react. Another exercise they were told to sit and stare at one another for hours and hours. E-meters serving as low-watt lie-detectors were meant to keep the auditors knowing what was happening to the people they were "training". I have wondered if Scientology is a mind control experiment factory. It does make you wonder.

Too many false religions teach a "shutting down" of emotions. All cults do it. They do not want open emotions or thought among their followers. Here too false leaders control masses of people telling them that showing any emotion is "wrong". People within these groups from the "Keeping Sweet" FLDS cult to your local fundamentalist "Christian" church, know that "emotional control" is one of the unwritten rules. Even showing too much "grief" is deemed "lacking trust in God." Abused women are told they must always keep a sweet smile on their face and must never react to abusers or the wicked with any anger or a frown.

I always have written on this blog, they are basically doing "mind control" on the masses. Soldiers are given resiliency training. One is told that one must always maintain "poise" no matter what. The stuff about emotions is growing stronger.  Yes emotional control has some importance. What we "do" matters comparative to how we "feel" but you wonder what has happened when emotions are seen in such a bad way. Aren't emotions God-given? What happens to people who close down all their emotions? Haven't you noticed for decades even the slang term "Cool" is applied to people who are the most disconnected, one is "cool", for being "emotionally above it all". Think about how that affected people and the expression of emotions.

One notices this a lot in false religions and cults. Emotions are to be suppressed. Emotions are to be controlled at the behest of the powerful who tells you what you are allowed to feel and think.  This is how so many are led to enable evil.   This is about control and power. My advice to all here is never allow someone else to tell you what to "feel" and be wary of those who seek to invalidate your feelings automatically. The bible warns us to "Guard our Hearts", and one aspect of that would be protect your emotions, and protect yourself.

Proverbs 4:2 Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.
Many of the wicked will try and get into your heart and mind wiggling and burrowing like a worm. There are people out there who commit soul murder. They destroy others using their emotions against them and tell them that because they have emotions at all, that they are horrible people. They will tell them that they are not "strong", and that they are "weak" failures who must be "delivered". The wicked seek control and they seek to "break" you. I believe many people who are separated from their God-given emotions or shamed for them, can be driven insane. I have noticed most of the Trojan horses who have been sent me over this blog, head for my "emotional" centers first, telling me I am "wrong" and "bad" and not a good person because I am not "happy" enough and not feeling the "right" emotions.   This is where some of the worse mind screws will come in. I believe it is happening society wide too.

What about all the psych medicines too? While some people do need help for chemical problems, have you ever noticed how they all numb people out? One scary study I saw in mainstream news was when they reported that in a study, Tylenol may decease empathy. Is it possible it was designed that way? That is a drug a lot of people take.

Some of the biggest ways mind control is used, and breaking people down in cults, is to teach them not to trust their emotions or to repress them. Obviously we are facing a message society wide, that "emotions" are a bad thing. Feelings are a bad thing. They are to be stifled. What is happening to the human soul in the middle of all this?

Romans 12:15: Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

A Verse For You If You Get Angry At God

"When my soul was embittered, when I was pricked in heart, I was brutish and ignorant; I was like a beast toward you. Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory." (Psalm 73:21–24).

If you get angry at God and sin, this is a good verse. Some weeks ago, in pain with horrible mouth sores from a flu and my husband getting very sick on the same day, I sinned and felt angry at God. This was first time in a long time anything like this had happened. I am not perfect and blamed God for things that were not His doing. We all have to be careful to see where our emotions carry us. Some Christian friends counseled me and assured me during this time.  I read the verse "I was like a beast towards you" and it applies. It is something that hit me out of the blue too.

God will forgive you if you get angry at Him and sin and go and repent. It was a very troubling time for me.

Is it wrong to get angry at God.

A Cartoon Display of the Republican Party

Doubleclick to enlarge the above. I saw this on Facebook, it is supposed to be by an artist named David Sanders. It's interesting that the carrot on the stick is not a real carrot, but perhaps he means that the GOP never really intends to end abortion which is something I agree with. I can't even begin to count the Christians who all told me to vote for amoral Trump because he is supposedly for "pro-life".

 I read the other day that the real deal with Trump is to privatize everything for the mega-corporations as well as doing the "transfer to nationalism" for the war build up. If I drew this cartoon I would have drawn some bombs in the back of the cart for all the war mongering.  A Democratic party one could be drawn with the Christian voters taken out of the equation, and they could leave the widow and orphan in the same place.

Leah Remini Embraces Catholicism after Scientology

Leah Remini Embraces Catholicism After Scientology

"After more than three decades as a Scientologist, Leah Remini tells PEOPLE she is now finding comfort in Catholicism – and is embracing it for all the ways she feels it differs from Scientology.
“Nobody is asking me for money. Nobody is demanding that I come,” she tells PEOPLE in its latest cover story. “I light a candle. I sit and I listen.”
Remini, 45, broke with Scientology in 2013 after growing up within the controversial religion, and rising in stature within the church after she found fame on The King of Queens.
But the actress – who just released her tell-all book, Troublemaker: Surviving Hollywood and Scientology – says her exploration of Catholicism is also a return to her roots, explaining that she was baptized Catholic and learned about the religion from her Sicilian grandmother."

That's going from the frying pan into the fire. Now it seems she wants to lead Scientologists to Rome.

Leah Remini Exposes Scientology

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Patriarchy vs Feminism Battlelines Get Drawn

Rick Joyner, Knights of Malta member and false preacher warns Americans about the Jezebel spirit of the huge woman's March. I read the other day this woman's march was the biggest demonstration ever. I get tired of false preachers going on about "the bad Jezebel-spirited women" as they never examine themselves and the evils they have associated themselves with. Elect a guy who rudely says he is going to grab women in locker talk, what do you expect from the feminist contingent?

That said, the Woman's March was actually quite popular. I know at least 10 women who attended it. Some traveled to the main march in Washington DC and others traveled to other cities that held marches and events. This was an anti-Donald Trump demonstration. Some were Hillary Clinton supporters. There's many women who were outraged at Donald Trump's negative speech towards women, and they went to go demonstrate. Many of the women wore pink hats, I can't even write what they called those hats either.

The official Women's March website has the "unity" principles listed, some are good like being against violence, for worker's rights and for helping disabled people and against racism, but the usual feminist and liberal goals are there too. In the unity principles there is open support for abortion.  Planned Parenthood was one of their partners.  I wonder if any Christian women against Donald Trump participated and were made uneasy by this or even knew of it? When I heard about this parade, I was kind of clueless thinking, hmm protesting Trump can't be all bad not realizing what the march was tied to.  The right and left division of the herd has only grown more extreme.

I notice in most of the signs it is the usual liberal social justice issues. No one is protesting NDAA. No one is standing against the economic injustices from what I can tell either.  Female sexual organs are drawn on some posters. Many of course defend abortion. I can go with the guy in the second video who has a sign that says, "I do not accept this filthy rotten system.". One single person points out how the swamp isn't being drained in the first video.

The male vs. female Hegelian dialectic is in full sway. 

Think about this, they got a nation-wide parade, protest and march for just women. [Yes a few males supporters were there.] Trump is seen as the "new authoritarian" man, who has filled his Cabinet with supporters of Dominionism and Patriarchy. Since the woman "Hillary Clinton" has lost the presidency, the women are outraged not based on any of her would-be credentials but just because she happened to be a woman. The disrespect of Trump for women plays hand in hand with the women's nation-wide feminist protest march.

As I wrote in 2011, Patriarchy and Feminism are both sides of the same evil coin.

Two Sides of the Coin: Radical Feminism Vs. The Patriarchy Movement

1 Cor. 11
Nevertheless neither is the man without the woman, neither the woman without the man, in the Lord.
For as the woman is of the man, even so is the man also by the woman; but all things of God.