Friday, May 19, 2017

Your Faith Will Be Tested and Asking Where is the Love?

Galatians 6:9King James Version (KJV)

9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.


If you are a Christian long enough, you will have times that test your faith. One question coming to me regarding being a Christian and seeking a closer relationship with God, is this idea of "Where is the love?"

I have to admit, somethings weigh on me heavily. When one sees what a mess the "Christian" world is, that is not always faith enhancing. The oppression of false Christians leads many away from the gospel. There were times, I was writing for this blog and thought, "It's gotten so crazy". One can see the non-believers who threw their hands up long ago or those who have fallen away and done so. As I wrote in the ODM article, I can understand why some go quiet.

This may shock some, but I got very scared of falling away for a period of time. I know this sounds bad. I was afraid. I am JUST coming out of it.  I almost fainted. I got tired.  I was embarrassed to even write of this time until NOW. I did not want to make anyone stumble, but now I have come out if it,I feel more comfortable writing about it.

One thing, these moments will happen. Christians need to be prepared for them. One struggle I have faced and written and hinted about a little bit, is feelings that God does not love me. There are times in the faith life, where one has to blockade one's own emotions and stand on decision and scripture. I have had those times. My own emotions were telling me to "Give up" and "Throw it all in the bag".

Lots of people had those monster parents, who could not or did not love them or imposed conditions on them. I know part of my recent spiritual struggle in being free from spiritual abusers, and more was rooted in some of that earlier conditioning. As people here know already and I have admitted I faced severe abuse as a child.

Because of my upbringing I believe I was vulnerable to spiritual abusers, and others who came with a long laundry list, presenting God as another "demanding" "parent" who would remove His love upon the littlest infraction. This is the aspect of fundamentalism that rankled me more and more. This vision of God as a nothing but a punishing "authoritarian" where all were to be crushed under his foot for the smallest infraction.

I had a recent email debate with one reader of this blog. She kept focusing on remarriage, and in her case she divorced her second husband. Her first husband was long ago gone, and married to another woman. I told her why pile sin upon sin, as she divorced the second husband she cared for. The first husband has already committed "fornication" to be with someone else. So everyone ends up alone? A second husband crying alone in a house, forsaken for a life alone? I wrote her and said, "Where is the love in that?"

She told me that I needed to tell people that one sin could send you to hell, I said if that is true, no one is getting into heaven. She also knew I had written and warned about "easy believism" and more. Maybe she is someone who needed to justify a decision she made, and was real but I found the whole exchange weird.

I felt sorry for her, that she saw God in the way that she did. No one in this life can be perfect. If God expects us to be perfect to get into heaven, forget it. Only Jesus Christ is perfect and He is the way we are getting in. I was made weary from this exchange.

In the evangelical world, there's too many people with NO MERCY. Some suffer because they have no mercy even for themselves.  There is a lot of coldness. Judgment comes first and mercy last. We can see it in politics. Mercy isn't even a word you hear much in evangelical circles.

Luke 6:36 - Be ye therefore merciful, as your Father also is merciful.

Most now are rallying for all the health care and Social Security to be taken away. If some of these health bills are passed, my life will be directly affected. We have even discussed leaving the country if we are unable to stay alive or pay our rent. My husband finally got some medical care for the first time in ten years only to maybe have it instantly snatched away. How much mercy is there out there anymore in a country that has fallen in love with power and showing none of it?

 Some of you have seen me complain about Trump and I pointed out the other day an article where nonbelievers are basically saying Christians are appearing as sociopaths to them. I know what they mean, for I have felt it. There's real people who are having their lives destroyed all over this nation. Ever see the Christian pastors ask why the rent is so high? I got friends in bigger cities paying 2/3rds of their income on rent and having it increased by 200 dollars every year while their wages go flat  The "official" evangelical world has embraced our oppressors. 

I was told by the spiritual abuser, that I was the one "demonized" instead of my wicked abusers. That discrepancy got to me. I think of various religious messengers who told me over and over that I was no good and did not measure up. I had enough of that growing up. Sadly that left me more vulnerable to predators like that, as I sought to "people please" and be a "good enough" person.

What was I to think of the "you are never good enough" crowd? They hurt my relationship with God, because I started to see God as just someone else, I never was "good enough" for, even though I had trusted in the righteousness of Jesus Christ for my salvation.  Look at the Duggars and others with their long laundry list of rules. This idea of never measuring up, was given to me by these people. I believe now most aren't even saved, they saw "god" as a pissed off sheriff ready to shoot every sinner or beat them up with a baseball bat. So wonder they have no qualms about their lauded politicians blowing up thousands of people browner then them overseas. They kept telling me one sin slip up and their "god" was ready to smack me into yesterday.  They told me, my body was broken down and had severe things wrong with it, due to my endless sins and "lack of faith".

People who believe in a "mean""god"can have him.I want nothing to do with their 'false god" and antichrist. And yes that is who they follow. So many are caught up in America vestiges of achievement, showing off and different interpretations of the prosperity gospel, they don't even see how their "religion" has lost all love.  My own faith was impacted by this feeling that my life in this country had no value, and that I would be thrown into a gutter to die, because of "muh taxes". This kind of thing gets to a person.

John 13:34King James Version (KJV)

34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

The love has been lost, among many.

Spiritual abuse can mess with a person's mind. I have not come out unscathed.  This spiritual abuse was more then any earthly counselors could deal with. The only Counselor I have for this one is the Holy Spirit. Who would believe my tales about a closet Satanist who writes against the new world order and acted as a loving friend before starting the mind screws? They would all say I had become mentally ill and would unload the psychotropic drugs. Over a short period of years, I was betrayed multiple times. I even had to dump a friend of thirty years from college,  I believe was "connected" to my parents and who rose up ranks in the Army. When she admitted to me, somethings she did for her "work", I knew we could not be friends anymore. She basically was teaching soldiers to shut off all conscience.

I'm in a time of transition, confronting my own relationship with God. It will be a time to build love and trust I hope. I have asked in terms of all the "fundamentalism" and religious rules that spiritual abusers tried to impose on me, "Where is the love"?

 I have a struggle, that has formed the foundation of my faith testing, I felt unloved by God. I have asked myself, how and why this happened? Too many life struggles? I know one thing that happened is I saw some very wicked people have victory in this world. I had to deal with very wicked people. I've written about this for years. As I grew in the faith, my eyes spiritually opened, and I parted ways from many. Some things I was shown I almost could not handle.

Narcissists and sociopaths don't love anyone but in this world they buy and "get" the "love" and "admiration" of many. Even my past spiritual abuser is "well liked" with grandchildren and family, and higher social standing then me. Other familial abusers have major status in this world, wealth, children and grandchildren as well. Over the last month, I made the decision to walk away from my ENTIRE FAMILY, and I do not just mean "mother" and others, I have already done so with years ago, but cousins and outlying relatives as well. For some of us that division Jesus spoke of has already come.

When I parted ways from abusers, no one would listen to my side of the story, the family rallied around the most wicked. For years, my name was smeared among all of them. However as I grew in the Christian faith, much of their life, values and focus on appearances and wealth grew more loathsome to me. While I believe homosexuals are far too harangued as many heterosexual sins are ignored, having one ENTIRE family in my family come out as homosexual [they have done so Facebook] with a gay father and homosexual teenage son and now a teenage daughter with no hormonal or physical problems ready to mutilate herself to turn male, I couldn't tolerate it. I cried over this girl and what had been done to her. She has already taken a male name. Her father's and brother's rejection of women has obviously impacted her. The wicked people kept me away from their children so there was no way for me to reach out to her.

My contact was rare with these cousins, but I noticed the rest of the family supported all of this. even my own mother.  I found out other relatives before the homosexuals came out, knew of their orientation. This told me fast, while so many objected to the religious things I had posted. Another family member also died, who I had been cut off from. In her case, she was poor and abused too, but she never escaped and she believed what they told her. This relative had rejected the gospel directly from me. I had a lot of grief which formed a lot of my spiritual angst.

There's a lot more to the family picture, my family is "connected", most are mid-level--6 figures-- they are at the good government job, Catholic church level. There's a few multimillionaire cousins, and one brother in law running for state senator. One cousin is a priest who ran an Indian boy's home, yes I found the school listed on one of those sexual abuse websites though his name was never specifically mentioned. My mother's best friend got a very high government job and was a canon lawyer nun. She got her, her first job. There are connections to a large very well known Catholic college. I guess you get my drift. I found out that as our household sunk into poverty, 6 figure relatives got others good professional jobs out of college.With one cousin, three relatives even lied to me about what town she lived in to hide the connected job she got out of college.  I was in the fog and clueless about a lot. Discovering multitudes of lies, was quite difficult. I feel freer now in being away but I have had the pressure of having absolutely no family in this world outside my husband. For some of Christians in this world, these things will happen.

When you see me post things about the idolatry of the family in the churches, there is a reason for it. I admit my own experiences weren't normal but I believe many of the family focused churches are doing many a disservice. What if you have no family?

It's scary when you see so many people becoming empty to match an empty culture. - What does it profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his soul? I know one thing I struggled with was feeling like the wicked had "won". They had the admiration of all, and I was cut off. No one wanted or cared about my side of the story. For years my beliefs had been vilified or openly mocked. There was no choice but to walk away.  I walked away from the majority a few years ago but the decision to walk away from all of them was hard but had to be done.

The wicked often have the world's love and goodwill and this can be a severe testing of faith. Some of us end up the ones alone, while we ask God, "Why won't He open people's eyes?" I struggled big time watching everyone march to the side of the narcissists and sociopaths. While I will tell people be prepared to deal with the wicked of this world, the church system will deny they even exist. They will tell you to reconcile with the non-repentant wicked. I would be called "hateful" in the majority of  churches in making the choice to walk away from a wicked family.

The same "group-think" I saw among my family, I also have seen in some Christian circles and the evangelical world as a whole. Conformity comes first, oppression of the poor is openly supported, and always being in competition is there too. I felt that wicked people had triumphed and God had not listened to my prayers. Satan was out to destroy me.

I basically in the last 4 years have walked away from a lot of people. It created a lot of angst and a spiritual testing that was severe especially realizing I had to walk away from the last who chose to believe the lies of sociopaths, and of this world.While some may see this action as unloving for me doing, there are people in this world there can be no real communication with, I tried for decades and followed God's leading. I also am examining myself, asking "Where is the love?" I have to ask it of myself too of course. The very nature of God is being maligned in the eyes of many people because of the lack of love they hold.

I am coming out of this faith test, it was not easy.

 My own relationship with God is changing. I can't be under the yoke of a "God" I see as lacking love for me like my own family and which left me vulnerable to spiritual abusers. God Himself I think is setting me free. He after all gave me the strength to walk away from the wicked. 

Psalm 10Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

Psalm 10
1 Why standest thou afar off, O Lord?
why hidest thou thyself in times of trouble?
2 The wicked in his pride doth persecute the poor:
let them be taken in the devices that they have imagined.
3 For the wicked boasteth of his heart’s desire,
and blesseth the covetous, whom the Lord abhorreth.
4 The wicked, through the pride of his countenance, will not seek after God:
God is not in all his thoughts.
5 His ways are always grievous;
thy judgments are far above out of his sight:
as for all his enemies, he puffeth at them.
6 He hath said in his heart, I shall not be moved:
for I shall never be in adversity.
7 His mouth is full of cursing and deceit and fraud:
under his tongue is mischief and vanity.
8 He sitteth in the lurking places of the villages:
in the secret places doth he murder the innocent:
his eyes are privily set against the poor.
9 He lieth in wait secretly as a lion in his den:
he lieth in wait to catch the poor:
he doth catch the poor, when he draweth him into his net.
10 He croucheth, and humbleth himself,
that the poor may fall by his strong ones.
11 He hath said in his heart, God hath forgotten:
he hideth his face; he will never see it.
12 Arise, O Lord; O God, lift up thine hand:
forget not the humble.
13 Wherefore doth the wicked contemn God?
he hath said in his heart, Thou wilt not require it.
14 Thou hast seen it;
for thou beholdest mischief and spite, to requite it with thy hand:
the poor committeth himself unto thee;
thou art the helper of the fatherless.
15 Break thou the arm of the wicked and the evil man:
seek out his wickedness till thou find none.
16 The Lord is King for ever and ever:
the heathen are perished out of his land.
17 Lord, thou hast heard the desire of the humble:
thou wilt prepare their heart,
thou wilt cause thine ear to hear:
18 to judge the fatherless and the oppressed,
that the man of the earth may no more oppress.




Alex Jones: "Trump to Resign on Monday"



 Honestly who knows, what is going to happen with Trump. Will we have President Pence, or Ryan or as some suppose Hatch? Alex Jones who protested both parties for years is a shill who has mislead so many. One line with this one, "He's not a conservative, he's a populist", made me burst out laughing. Sure Alex, with all those Goldman Sachs appointees! Trump already back tracked on NAFTA. Trump is an "insider" too. I do not support Trump. He was brought in as some kind of Trump card.

Right now it is hard to know what the elites are up to. Sometimes trying to make my way through the thicket of "fake news" and the biases of both sides is very hard. It's like they want to confuse everyone even more. Are they trying to spark off a Civil War in the USA? Is this to heighten trouble with Russia, if half the populace believes Russia "interfered" with our elections? Is this all a distraction for another event?


Remember that book NONE DARE CALL IT CONSPIRACY?

They use to talk about Russia formenting trouble in the USA and "taking over", of course they talked about this from the "fear the socialists" angle but remember the socialists and capitalists all got married since the megacorporations and ultra wealthy bought out our government and gave themselves "socialist" bank bailouts. Don't let all these terms confuse you. You got to think outside the right and left box now.

Is Time magazine trying to TELL us something? Am I odd to ask this question. America the ship is sinking while the captain and crew fight.

What does liberal and conservative even mean anymore? Both parties are for tyranny and economically crushing the average person. Even knowing what people are facing in terms of having to pay for rent, and the lowering job opportunities, our news is so owned, that the day to day life of the average person is simply not talked about. No one will ask, should someone be having to pay 1400-2000 dollars a month for an average 1 bedroom apartment in a large city  or address the growing economic troubles, we will be told the "economy is doing great!"

He talks about all the presidents being corrupt, well Trump is too.

 Infowars continues with their theory that Trump will be forced to resign. 

  Donald Trump Will Find A Way to Resign Says President's Ghostwriter


Catholic Cardinal Visits Bruderhof Community



 I found this interesting given the Bruderhof community supports Rod Dreher's Benedict Option. I suppose this tells us how ecumenical so many "anabaptists" have become and I find it interesting that a Catholic Cardinal paid a visit to this "intentional community".

  Bruderhof communities

Saturday, May 13, 2017

"Has Evangelical Christianity Become Sociopathic?"

"Has Evangelical Christianity Become Sociopathic?"

Even non-believers are picking up on the smell of brimstone and evil among the closet luciferians who are waving the "Christian flag" for the religious right. They are fulfilling their true master, Satan's command, that they lead people away from the gospel. I don't agree with all of the article of course, certainly not abortion and other leftist positions,but the religious right's support of amoral politicians stripping away the last of the safety net is overt evil. The regular world is asking "Why have "Christians" turned so evil?" 

Young people are leaving the churches in droves, and it's not all "godless liberals" as Fox News would state but they are fed up with the blindness towards their economic realities, and how the churches promote a lifestyle and status they cannot afford or are not experiencing.  They see the meanness, hypocrisy and push for political control and money. They see with their own eyes the lust for war, and the spiritual abuse that occurs on the macro-level.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

The False Church System Deception




This video has some good messages, but while I have made the decision to post it, I wish the youtuber had avoided a "Latin" name and use of the Chi Rho for their avatar on youtube. We can hope they just have more studies to do.

One thing he points out is the churches use of STAGES. I wrote a post long ago on this blog, how the use of "altars" in churches was wrong, but if you think about it, having a STAGE is wrong as well, because it turns "church" into a performance, with elevated men or clergy at the front getting all the attention. He refers to the "show" being common to everything from the Catholic church to the small baptist church and he is correct.

One time I told my husband, "What is the use of attending these lecture halls, once a week, where we sit and listen to some guy wrest scripture for an hour or more and teach things more and more I don't agree with? I thought about that more, "Why are churches run like lecture halls and theater shows where a passive audience just sits there eating it up?"Some could claim to me, "Well the Quakers did things quite a bit different"... However there, false teachings entered in and transcendentalism but outside of that one exception I can't think of one church that calls itself Christian that "deviates" from the formula discussed in this video.

He questions, this "platform" and says no one questions it. I liked the phrase "the conman's tactic of social compliance."  He is right about the question, "Where do you go to church?"being a nonsense question because those who are saved ARE the church. His bit of information about William Tyndale translating ekklesia as "congregation"is telling. I always hated that phrase too, that "the church is a hospital for sinners". It has been used to shame me many times for not attending church. He shows us that in scripture, the gospel and epistle writers refer to the church as those sanctified in Jesus Christ.

I said to my husband in the conversation mentioned above, "Why isn't church more interactive?" So I found it interesting when this youtuber, quotes 1 Cor. 14:26 as the biblical way to do church.

How is it then, brethren? when ye come together, every one of you hath a psalm, hath a doctrine, hath a tongue, hath a revelation, hath an interpretation. Let all things be done unto edifying.


Do any of you know of a church run that way? I sure don't. If anyone speaks out in church besides the pastor, they are often removed. He makes a good point that the church system has departed from these verses. The house churches in the book of Acts are mentioned as well, where believers gathered. He compares the order of the Protestant church services to the Roman Catholic Mass, I saw too many "ceremonies" even at baptist churches. He is correct about the clergy/laity divide which I have referred to on this blog and is referred to by Jesus Christ as the error of the Nicolaitans.

I am glad later in the video, he does bring up that some may wonder how is this feasible, understanding that many of us know no people in real life who have voiced the same concerns.

Watch this video and tell me what you think....

Odd Theology: Earth is Hell?



I saw this the other day and wonder if this is tied into the Archon teachings I posted about the other week. Wouldn't a "prison planet" be akin to hell? This definitely is a dangerous teaching, because if people believe they are already in "hell" on earth why would they feel a need for a Savior?This is a teaching I could see enticing people. I felt the tendrils of it, even licking at my brain, like "yeah this world is so bad, maybe we really are living in hell". I was having a bad day that day,  and I had to shake it off saying, "That's not biblical."

 It is disturbing. This world can definitely have aspects of hell in it, with murder, crime, abuse, severe illnesses and worse but how do you explain having God's Word available, or nature or beauty?  Why would the Holy Spirit be here indwelling in Christians? I have heard of other religions claiming this earth is hell. One friend told me the Chabads did so but it is something I don't know much about. Some New Age philosophies seem to skirt around it. Jesus Christ warned about hell for a reason. "Where" it is exactly is, we can't specify, but to say this earth is hell is total confusion.

There are those who claim hell is in the "center" of this earth, but I have not seen any bible verses or anything else that points to that. It is just speculation.

2 Thessalonians 1:9King James Version (KJV)

9 Who shall be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord, and from the glory of his power;

How many "ODM's" are left?

I'm using Phoenix Preacher's phrase [online discernment ministries or ODMS] He uses it disparagingly, I'm using it as a descriptor.

Yes there's very few out there now. Independent ones, even far less.

I have seen many come and go. I know my postings have slowed down considerably and I don't do the heavier research of years ago. I've been sick for years but my energy has gotten more and more limited. Maybe slower is better then nothing....yes that is where I am at now. This is one forum for some to talk about issues that are NOT WELCOMED anywhere else, so I want to keep it going.

Phoenix Preacher may go on about those dastardly ODMs being a problem, but they have fallen away like dominoes especially the true independent ones. I get the feeling even sounding the warning siren-call has fallen out of vogue too. I am no prophet or guru, and sometimes I ask "Who am I to even post about these things?"

 The pressure to conform can come via that direction too, the one world church is already using these things, that to stand outside it means you are the "nut", the "crazy" and even this one, "to stand outside the churches" means you are not a Christian at all.

PP's path into wafer worship will mean "acceptance" in this world. Sometimes I have felt "burdened" by the things I found out and wrote about here for years, was some happiness lost not being in a church with people who loved and cared about me? Did I ask too many questions, think too much? Funny I state it that way, I know. I'm not perfect. My husband has heard musings about me missing out on a "nice church" because of this blog and my desire not to be hypocrite. I'd probably would have been forced out of all of these churches anyway, having a big mouth and a failure to conform. I knew spiritually that would be happening anyway.

Some ripped on me for thinking I was the "worlds" best Christian" or "too pure" for church but I never saw it that way. I knew I was far from perfect but I never could shut down my mind or what I had learned via God's Word, and refused to "get with the program" they wanted me to get with.

I'm hoping now to post some "discussion topics" I can post as an "article" and allow for some discussion, I think that would be a good idea. Suggest any topics you would like to see here.

Also if you know of other "ODMS" still alive and running and NOT with an agenda as you can tell or discern so far, I would be happy to hear about others as well. 


Trump Turning Churches More Political



Wow, now the preachers can be direct in telling you to vote Republican instead of couching it in more indirect terms. I had at least two stump for Republican candidates in indirect fashions.

I had a funny moment the other week, going to a local community meeting regarding elderly and disability issues, and hearing the out of touch Republican state representatives go on about all the "unfilled jobs". They basically said, "Poor people are lazy and don't want to work." I know tons of unemployed people around here. One guy was from a more rural area and was more down to earth, but the others, definitely seemed completely out of touch.

 Aren't the churches too political? When I was looking for a church, I had my choice of red pill churches {Republican} party or blue pill churches {Democratic} party. The fact you never can find one that bucks the trend, says something.

 They are already quite political, and now they want them to be even more so?  I am speaking out against evils being done, especially the "death panels" they got planned for disabled and elderly people. So I have no problem with Christians doing that, but one thing, I never saw a church pastor ever speak out against the system or any of the oppression. The churches have become mouth-pieces for our oppressors.

 Look at Greg Laurie and that Trump boot-licking faith council. They can't even tell the guy to ease up on the disabled or that the country has been bankrupted by too many wars? Well we know that's not going to happen. Some pundits online said, this really "won't change" anything but the focus to turn the churches MORE political is part of the Dominionist system and agenda.

Greg Laurie Visits the White House



What did they pray for? More Middle Eastern wars? More "death panels" via the Republican party by the possible way of Trump care? You'll never see any of these so called "godly" preachers questioning the evils of the Republican party.

Check out the "Faith Advisory Board" pictured a little bit into his video. Are those ties really by accident? Don't the freemasons use the rainbow as a symbol too?

Notice how he talks about them being like "little children" overly impressed with power, and seeking the love and praise of men. I read years ago Laurie was going to be slated as the new "Billy Graham". He tries to distance himself from the political end of everything saying, "If the president of the United States invites you for dinner...., you go to dinner with the president." 

He speaks of offering Trump, "godly counsel". He says, "We need to permeate every level of culture because that is what we are supposed to do." Do you believe that many members of this administration are "overt Christians"?Well I suppose you can guess what I think of that.

Monday, May 1, 2017

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Orthodox Rod Dreher's "The Benedict Option" Promoted by Christianity Today












The Benedict Option

The culture wars and Dominionism is growing extreme. In the first video, Dreher, tells us Christians are in "exile" from our pagan secular culture, and the best option for Christians who want to live "lives of virtue" is to withdraw and form their own "communities". I find this idea of structured community, interesting given that spontaneous community in America especially among mainstream culture has failed. In the churches I have visited at least locally, I see no more spontaneous community. Everything is planned, formal and authority from the top down. Be careful of what sounds good but is not.

The church system is rapidly going Communitarian, as someone who has needed "charity" at times in the form of church food pantries and co-ops, the churches are intertwining with  governmental, corporate and other groups. At a recent food co-op, we had a visiting nurse and a local job's program person show up to the meeting with the distribution of food. Among the church helpers, is this false, that if we "become more responsible" or "work harder" our poverty will end. There is no discussion of the economic realities of American life today. Even the odd class blindness that most poor people unless disabled are already working seems to have escaped our middle class and above benefactors, as they seem to think mowing some lawns or fast food work is going to rescue people from poverty. They don't realize most in the room are already working for minimum wage.  They are selling everything that isn't nailed down already. Economic despair and the realities of our lives remains suppressed. There's little free speech.

I told my husband, "while we will go when we need to help" and desire to stay polite, we have to be sure to protect our privacy. These are people who will not understand an older man who can't stand for more then 10 minutes due to vein problems, and his work needs. The idea of the "Religious experts" getting together to form "Communities of virtue" scares me. Imagine the "rules", the "pious" would unleash among their set apart exiles.

The idea of some removed "Christian" community as a bulwark against the unbelieving hordes sounds like the dystopian novel "Handmaid's Tale", not only will they have the  subjugated women, they will have the Catholic inspired neo-feudalism to go along with it. 

Do you remember Fanatic for Jesus's other blog, "The Communitarian Trap"? The church system is rapidly going Communitarian. The idea of "Christian" communes or "Utopias" such as what the Shakers set up is nothing new, but you wonder about new marriages between government and churches and neo-feudal set-ups like what is proposed in Dreher's book.

 The Communitarian Trap defined Communitarianism thusly:

"Communitarianism is a global agenda toward world government. It uses a coalition of government, business, and church who shore up the social, moral, and political environment, while slowly robbing the freedom of the participants. A Communitarian adopts and advocates concepts such as a cooperative spirit of community, selfless commitment to community service, and the duty to work for “the common good.” It's tied from the U.N. directly to Agenda 21, the Third Way, Common Purpose, laws, community objectives, Total Quality Management, education, food delivery systems, and the collectivist thinking pattern of the global community. It uses the Hegelian Dialectic to create the synthesis needed to develop the New World Order - and ultimately the totalitarian utopia of the Elite's New Atlantis.



In the first video, Dreher advocates for Christians to separate from mainstream American culture, and tells us that only "culture" can save Christianity.  The many verses that warn against the "love of this world" from scripture contradict his philosophies that are very much of this world. This is advanced Domininionism. The message being that Christians must rule, and build their own kingdoms on this earth.  Around the 10:39 mark he quotes an early church historian Robert Lewis Wilkin.."that apologetics and intellection cannot save Christianity only culture can. By culture I do not mean high culture, Box B high mass Caravaggio as a colleague of St Matthew I mean the total harvest of thinking and feeling to use TS Eliot's phrase the pattern of inherited meanings and sensibilities encoded in rituals, laws, languages and practices and stories that can order and inspire the behavior thoughts and inspirations of a Christian people."  That just sounds like a nice way to advertise some thought control.

In the second video, Fox news interviews Dreher. He mentions the "catastrophic" departure of millennials from churches and Christianity. This actually happened with Generation X. To be frank, most of the young, have become far beyond disgusted with the "culture wars" especially in a culture where our economic disenfranchisement has become so acute. The reality is many of the young have rejected Christianity as a whole. The culture wars actually helped. I was planning an article to do soon, where I predict a "church" bubble bursting like the college bubble. People who can't afford rent, aren't going to be tithing. Millennials are not having children to fill the pews with.

 I can already see on the local level, the churches remaining strongly middle class and above, while poorer people while we may be in the church to get some food, they are not part of the church. I am someone who has left the church system but for the average poor person, they know they do not belong and stay out of the system by default. What happens when mostly more affluent Baby Boomers die off? That said Dreher will ensure more millennials racing for the door, especially with his authoritarian vision of religious life. Of course I always wonder if the race for the one world church door, will be implemented via severe economic collapse or war in America, but as things work now, the churches are not addressing the needs of the young.

Is Communitarianism or a Commune in Your Future? 


Videos three and four are interesting to me because it shows a Bruderhof young woman, advocating for the Benedict Option. Some may ask me, what's so interesting about that? I knew about the Bruderhof, because I am someone who has read quite extensively about intentional communities. They are a religious community where people live in common and their beliefs are very akin to the Hutterites in America. Intentional communities are defined by Wikipedia: "An intentional community is a planned residential community designed from the start to have a high degree of social cohesion and teamwork. The members of an intentional community typically hold a common social, political, religious, or spiritual vision and often follow an alternative lifestyle.". The Bruderhof is a religious one, they share housing, meals and a very close and social lifestyle.


While I know the new world order, is going to use arranged communities and intentional communities [aka today's modern communes], I have had a personal interest in that way of life. Modern American life for many and especially the poor has become very empty.  One ponders escape to a better place.  In my case, I wondered if any true independents and spontaneous associations existed outside the "communitarian" system. I even had fantasies about finding a place that would accept someone with severe chronic health problems but my husband's response to these alternative lifestyles was an unequivocable, "NO, I am not going to live with a thousand brothers and sisters".

I fantasized about finding a loving community to join where someone of my Christian views would be welcomed, but I never acted on this, I was too sick and disabled.  I also noticed someone who renounced Catholicism and the ecumenical vision for Christianity probably wouldn't be too welcomed either. Why am I sharing this? Well in lonely American culture, these new ways of life seem VERY ATTRACTIVE and were/are to me personally. I believe as society goes into more economic and other chaos, selling these ideas will not be hard. As the economy in America crumbles and life for many becomes more hard, people are going to be seeking "new solutions".

Sadly human reality usually steers towards wickedness, this is NOT new stuff that Dreher is selling, American Utopianism especially of the "Christian flavor" took off in the 19th century, with the Shakers leading the charge. Back then these communities also were run like "communes" with new social rules and ways of life. Sadly a majority went into major corruption with false leaders, religious and spiritual abuse, and extreme doctrines. The Shakers died out renouncing all sex and marriage. There was a lot of abuse with wolves in sheep's clothing claiming power and control over people and many grew into out and out cults.

I even looked myself into co-housing, because life in America especially for a childless older couple without a family can feel very isolating but for some reason, they all seem to be relegated to the wealthy and for those of a certain ideological bent. I looked at "Christian" communities and had a fascination with them, on an intellectual level, so yes I knew about the Bruderhof. It does not surprise me that one of their own, is supporting Dreher's book or that Dreher visited one Bruderhof community in America called Fox Hill. [see video #3] Perhaps there is a planned marriage of "Christian" intentional communities with Dreher's vision of set apart Christian villages and communities. Here one sees the ecumenical movement in action as Orthodox meets Ana-baptist.

The Benedict Option has become a best-selling book and made the cover of Christianity Today. Definitely these view-points are being pushed by some powerful interests. The rooms full of wealthy academics and others are on display in the videos.  The question now is to ask Why?  What are they planning?

I asked in 2013, "Is Communitarianism or a Commune in your future?" In 2013, the blogger on The Communitarian Trap, warned about the efforts to turn Christians into an army of workers for the new United Nations sustainability and social justice efforts:

The Hands and Feet of Christ and the Identifying Marks of a Communitarian Social Justice Agenda.

This is definitely one direction the one world religion is building, with different denominations joining together. Rick Warren got this ball rolling. Evangelicals now take no issue with a vision of Christian life based on a Catholic religious order.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

War With Syria?



Trump lied. Are you surprised? I'm not. He promised his voters he would end the "USA as policeman of the world" nonsense. Nope he's another "owned asset" continuing the neo-con war agenda of Bush, Cheney and company as planned in the Plan for the New American Century. The Middle Eastern wars are to be continued. Some Trump voters have expressed outrage over this. Well, they got played.
The globalist march is not to be ended. Iraq, Afghanistan, Somalia, Libya, and now Syria and soon to be Iran. General Wesley Clark warned of "The Pentagon's New Map" wars years ago.  Per usual lies and propaganda are used to "sell war". The would be clashes with Russia, are a disturbing part of the puzzle. They tried pushing war with Syria since 2013 and well now they could be getting their wish.

Syria

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Phoenix Preacher Becomes an Anglican

Why I am {Becoming} an Anglican.

Phoenix Preacher or Michael Newnham used to be a Calvary Chapel pastor.

His blog warned of many Calvary Chapel scandals after he left. He is now becoming an Anglican. Often over the years I have talked about how the deficiencies of evangelicalism lead some right back into the Catholic, and liturgical church system. One of his commenter's wrote; "I like my freedom way too much to be an Evangelical “christian” (small case on purpose). Well with all the Dominionism and authoritarianism shoved down people's throats on the religious right, I'm not going to argue with that guy. Phoenix Preacher [interesting name] is basically entering the left/liberal wing of the Catholic church. Anglican and Episcopal services which I have visited in my past, match, the Catholic mass very closely.

It is sad to read the comments and how many became fed up with the superficiality of false evangelical teachings and churches and how this led them right back into Rome's gaping maw. Religion is like politics, choose your side, "right or left", evangelical/Protestant or Catholic. Both the red and blue pill are poison. Us outliners who have left the system, it's hard I know. We have supposedly "invented our own religion" when all we did was get saved and actually read the Bible. It's sad to see thinkers fall for Rome's lies and false traditions over and over again.

Other mentions of Phoenix Preacher

Growing Number of Christians Don't Go to Church

Growing Number of Americans Love Jesus but Don't Go to Church, Barna Finds
Read more at http://www.christianpost.com/news/americans-love-jesus-dont-go-to-church-barna-179227/#K5K3RbjP9tXtZE76.99
Growing Number of Americans Who Love Jesus Don't Go to Church


"Barna has released a report on the first of a two-part exploration of faith and spirituality outside the church, looking at the "fascinating segment of the American population who, as the saying goes, 'love Jesus but not the church.'"

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One-tenth of the population comprises those who self-identify as Christian and who strongly agree that their religious faith is very important in their life, but are "dechurched," meaning they have attended church in the past, but haven't done so in the last six months or more, the Barna study says, adding that only seven percent of the population belonged to this category in 2004."


Read more at http://www.christianpost.com/news/americans-love-jesus-dont-go-to-church-barna-179227/#K5K3RbjP9tXtZE76.99

They found 10% of self identifying Christians admitting they don't go to church. I believe there's definitely people in my boat and many reader's who have seen through the church system and have abandoned it. 


Monday, April 3, 2017

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Goodbye To Fundamentalism!


I still am a Christian. I still believe in God's Word. I am sure many would consider many of my beliefs "classically fundamentalist" when it comes to belief in God's Word, I see fundamentalism as just another "ism" to kick to the curb.


That said I have to be honest on this blog and have to admit, that I no longer consider myself a fundamentalist, and my ongoing division with the religious right and the rest has grown stronger. How much of "fundamentalism" in America has absolutely nothing to do with God or Christianity and has become about nothing but "control", "fear" and "punishment".

It's sometimes scary because I know I am in a place that "defies" the labels. It can make communication more tougher. People want to figure out where a person is coming from and the short-hand labels serve as an easy marker. Many of us who have left the church system sometimes do feel like we are floating out in space. People ask us, "What are you?" and besides saying "Christian" what do you tell them?

Dealing with that spiritual abuser and false "deliverance" person has led me to some more self examination and theological musings. It has changed me not only to have left the last IFB in the last 18 months, but also that whole process and examining spiritual abuse issues. I hope I never have been spiritually abusive to anyone judging them on high, I definitely have examined some of my own tactics.  I don't want to be like that person who messed with me and preached legalism and religiosity beyond measure. She probably was a closet Satanist but there's many who believe themselves to be Christians causing a lot of damage to people. They take self righteousness to new heights and the Bible warns about those people with the "appearance of godliness". There's a lot of people being hurt by false religion and legalists and I never want to be one of those doing the damage to someone else.

Recently I have been in some strong spiritual battles, I have even feared my own falling away they have been so bad. Some unanswered prayers have piled up and my own relationship with God has entered a very troubled area. Imagine the metaphor of a marriage when it comes to God. There have been arguments, railings and slammed doors and then apologies and repentance, but then more arguments. It has been a mess. Some of the arguments with God even had to do with "how my life has turned out" and feelings of deep grief. I have to apply SOME OF THINGS I MYSELF warned about on this blog years ago, where false fundamentalists teach things like "a good life here" means you are "blessed by God".  I suppose real communication is better then trying to be fake in front of God. Spiritual tests and battles will come to people. 

I have battled dealing with feeling that God does not love me which I posted on already and trying to stand on scripture to fight Satan's lies. I have overcome some of these problems but still remaining in some struggle. It is related to personal and other issues. False fundamentalism can damage someone's relationship with God. It did me. That spiritual abuser planted some terrible seeds, and almost could have succeeded in destroying my faith. Spiritual abuse has repercussions and I have faced them. Those who speak only judgment and no kindness and love can drive a wedge between someone and God. Fundamentalism in America has become nothing but. The love is gone. Love is an issue I am thinking on a LOT lately and Love between me, God and others.  Choosing between cold people who claim they stand on sound doctrine and have no love, and the mushy world of liberal "love" where anything goes is not much of a choice is it?

I think about people who walked from God deeming God "their enemy" because He did not bless them or their lives became full of more problems. Its a lot of people. "Perfect" Fundamentalist Frank and Francine with their Quiverful family and white-picket fence lives and Moral Majority culture wars, have sent many people fleeing what they think is Christianity. Some people just want to have some love, and comfort and feel like God cares about them. The regular world sees "Christian" fundamentalists as evil and while some are in that category of being offended by true servants of the Lord, giving them the gospel , many see the power-hungry, mean and others using religion to bash people in the face, make money and get power.

I know the religious right world is a world I have warned of for years on this blog but it is a world I know I will never fit in. In many ways I never fit in the "fundamentalist" world either though I tried for years to find a place in the IFB churches with my first experience being more positive, and the second more negative and me changing along the way.

The fundamentalist world is JUST another system to be rejected. I have warned of the excesses of fundamentalism. I have warned of many of them for years. Many will tell you that if you reject the religious right, the anti-intellectualism, and the authoritarianism, this means you must add in the rejection of God's Word and beliefs based upon it. Some will shout that your rejection of these things means you no longer hold to scripture and Christian beliefs. They are wrong. Stand on what you know.

This is where the forced squashing into either one of the sides of the "right" and "left" religious and political matrix can become the worse. I meet fellow Christians like me sometimes who have left the "system" so to speak and the automatic reaction is that you "have turned liberal" and ready to join the world of the Presbyterian USA denomination or United Church of Christ, or the mainliner or liturgical world, and that you will want to read Sojourners. That is simply not true. This can be like walking through a thicket. Here is where you will be told, you have "formed your own religion" and if you are the "only person" who believes this way, then you have "formed your own cult". Trust me I have undergone some major self questioning ABOUT ALL OF THIS.

For those out of the religious system, maybe you have dealt with this stuff too. One person said to me, "If your beliefs are so strange, that you don't fit anywhere and cannot find one tolerable church you are in a very extreme place." This means most every other Christian holds very wrong beliefs except for YOU and this probably means you need to "rethink" your ideas and conform somewhat."

Talk about laying on the pressure. One thing they don't realize that inside, conforming would have been the easiest path. Too many have conformed from the first place and didn't say NO to the excesses, otherwise why did the churches run off the rails so much? Is the only alternative to crazed and mean "Christian" Taliban Dominionists running into the arms of those who reject scripture, and teach that all religions lead to the same place?

Yes conforming would have been the EASIEST path. I wouldn't feel so alone in this. I spent a lot of time trying to find a place where I would "fit" and "belong" and never did.  It hurt a lot. I had some dreams about THIS LIFE, that died. Because of my past history, the desire for a church "family" was very strong, but I've been enough places to know I could not just sit somewhere and digest what I was told without thinking about it and examining it. If I had found a place where open communication was allowed and iron sharpening iron, that would have made all the difference, even with minor disagreements I could have handled it, instead of just being spoon-fed from on high. I suppose those places are very rare now. I believe I myself am responsible for what I know and it's true of every person.

I'm done with fundamentalism. Right now it's not just the excesses, but the whole ball of wax.

One wants to seek after God's love, and lover for others too. I don't mean in the mushy enabling of evil way either but where we feel love and able to give love to others. The power and control matrix of what passes for "Christanity" today has reached absurd levels.

I am not sure where I am going with all this, I am in my own path of exploration. Where am I going? My mind is changing on some things but definitely not the truth of God's Word and the gospel of Jesus Christ.



She Has a Point

Self-Centered Religion Fashions a Self-Centered God
March 11th, 2017
American Evangelicals and Fundamentalists are often about “a relationship” with God, which, as one critic has observed, is a step better than being unconcerned with God. But relationship-based religion has got some problems.

First, if my religion is based on me having a great relationship with God, then if I don’t have a great relationship with Him, God has failed. If I have tried everything, offered everything (including my hours playing on the XBox) as praise to Him, tried to see every single trouble from the coffee not brewing properly to the toilet backing up as God taking action in my life to develop my relationship with Him, then when I get frustrated, mystified, and pissed-off, it’s God’s fault.


American Christanity talks a lot about "being broken" by God. You'll have a hard time finding the Bible speaking this way about believers. Christ was broken for us.

To get around that attitude about God, relationship seekers have formulated their own code, thanks in great part to the likes of Tozer and Murray, in which they talk about God breaking us, shattering us, maiming us, clobbering us, spitting on us, kicking us down the steps, letting the air out of our tires, and so on. Does this sound like blasphemy to you? Well yes, it is blasphemy. It’s definitely blasphemy. Any religion founded on the idea that God breaks us and shatters us for as long as He likes, while in addition He sends all of life’s littler vexations to drive us batty as we crawl blindly after Him, wondering what He wants us to do to fix the relationship, until He has reduced us to jelly in order to scoop us up and inject us into the mold that He chooses is blasphemous. It’s also imbecilic. It’s horrible, and it’s repulsive. And, way down deep at it’s heart, it makes man the center of the religion.
We who are in Christ have peace with God. And God established our peace with God, through Christ.

Evangelicals and Fundamentalists have, in many ways, lost the point of it all. God has not elected jellys to mold into shapes at His whim. He has elected saints, heroes of the faith, to know Him through obedience. And, to share in their lot and be their salvation, He has become one of us, leading us along the path of doing good, withstanding hardship with dignity, loving others all the way to death. That’s a far cry from the self-centered, jelly-based religion of American Christianity. We have not been put here to be broken, smashed, and shattered until we sit, absolutely stone still in resignation until the next blow of the hammer does or doesn’t come. We have been put here to open the doors of the prisons, make devils flee before us in our Master’s name, break the chains that oppress, and throw down evil in high places.

Are we going to suffer as we do these things? Well….yes (as in Duuuh!). God Himself when He walked among us, the Son of Man, suffered. He suffered all the nuisances and nonsenses of life, and He suffered poverty. Then He suffered rejection, abandonment, and crucifixion. He didn’t suffer these things because God the Father was breaking Him in order to have a better relationship with Him. Christ suffered because He put Himself into a fallen world under the dominion of sin. He suffered a lot of the nonsense of this life simply because it is the lot of fallen man to suffer. And though Christ was unfallen, He took on our lot in order to be one with His People. Furthermore, He suffered because He brought love and light into the world, and all the forces and energies of the world oppose such things. But He showed us that even as He participated in our suffering, that we His People can use our sufferings to participate in His sufferings. And we don’t have to live in terms of our pain. We can live in terms of love, mercy, and kindness.

God’s first and greatest commandments to us, echoed by Christ, are to love God first, and love others second. And the two commandments hinge on each other.

 Years and years ago I used to see Jeriwho on that Fighting Fundamentalist board, which I still believe has many interlopers on it. She seemed sincere and was someone who came out of fundamentalism herself.  I didn't always understand what she was writing about as I was new to fundamentalism myself just coming out of the Catholic church. I was a different person though I definitely had some empathy for those who suffered abuses she exposed. I would go on to expose things on this blog that outraged me too in the fundamentalist world.

Those were years I was still in the first IFB so we did not agree on everything. I don't agree with everything now, I believe she attends a conservative Presbyterian church but she has a point about the false fundamentalists who teach a self focused [I have written about this as the "best life now" theology] faith where everything is about rules, and toeing the line to "keep blessings" in this world. Her other writings seem to have many truths about the fundamentalist world.

 I have thought of the fundamentalist world a lot and about my own experience with that spiritual abuser and asked myself, "Where is the love?" Isn't God supposed to be love and not just a cruel being, who smacks us around if we step out of line or listen to a secular song? That said, rule based authoritarian people who worship a "God" of cruelty operate out of the desire to "control and punish others" which sums up so much of the religious political and religious right. They believe in a "God" that wants to break them, instead of God who said this:

1 Peter 5:7 KJV Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you

Botkin Girls Tell Us Boys are Complicated



See this post for context:
10 Years Later The Botkin Sisters Remain Unmarried: The Failure of the SAHD Movement

 It's sad seeing these stunted 30 somethings who have never dated or married telling us that men and relationships are complicated. Their talk is vague. There is nothing wrong with never marrying and being single but in a world where the Dominionists and others consider women only worthwhile if they have married or had children, everything is focused on that, even if you are like these two, and never have gone out into the world to do service for the Lord or work in a career.

Why are they still focused on "relationships?" instead of living the best single life, they can have? Why are they still giving advice that has failed? Beyond the issues, that their Daddy never let them grow up or obtain their own adult lives, their focus in life seems to be remaining bitter "Spinsters". Remember how I wrote I thought myself an old maid and I did not marry until 29 in the other Botkin article linked above. I have health and other problems impacting my dating.

Before I met my husband via a newspaper single ad, I had decided that if I did not meet someone to marry, I was going to focus on life as a single person instead of beating myself up over my "failure" to couple up. In my case back in those days, I was a teacher, so I had a life of "my own". Why isn't that taught to young Christian women? Where one can find and have a single life if that is what happens?

I was not yet a Christian but there's a lot of harm being done to young women where they are told they are "worthless" or "failures" for not marrying or having children. This is related to the point that now there seems to be no place in the churches for people with no families and that applies to me with no family of origin in my life outside a few cousins who live hundreds of miles away and no children of my own. To me, this video is extremely sad, these two have been so indoctrinated that their only worth rests in their relationship to men, that they are now doing videos in their early 30s, about how "relationships with men are complicated" and they have never had one.

Their advice definitely has not worked for them. Their constant "guarding of their hearts", sheltering, and rigid rules in relating to men, has helped to forever ensure their single status. They are afraid of men watching this video and see them in a stereotypical "gendered" fashion. Maybe they are making a reference to popular vampire shows, when they draw one man with fangs, but it says something to me about how they view men. The reference to parents giving spiritual guidance of course is the lie of the patriarchy movement. How many fathers "approve" the men their daughters marry?

The idealized visions in that world of family life and relationships are doomed for failure. When they draw a woman wearing a burka, don't they realize they are being told to live culturally like Taliban women? There is denial too, of love and sexual attraction for idealized pure and platonic relationships. If all attraction is squashed, how would anyone end up married unless one switches to a system of arranged marriage? At least the Orthodox Jews with all their rules arrange marriages, these women have been raised in a false system that almost ensures their unmarried status.

I believe the SAHD movement will die out just based on the fact many women will end up like the Botkin sisters. Mr. Duggar informally started arranging his daughters marriages. In this case their father must have never wanted them to marry and they kept obeying instead of growing up and getting their own lives, and we see the results first hand. It's sad to see them still trying to sell advice that has massively failed in their own lives.

 1 Cor 7:7-8 For I would that all men were even as I myself. But every man hath his proper gift of God, one after this manner, and another after that.

College Makes Women Stupid?



I'm confused he says people who don't read are shallow. Doesn't college advance "reading"? I wonder about people who have no interest in the world around them but then says college makes women stupid. Not every class at college is a liberal-based woman's studies class. Sure there are false world views pushed in college, but to tell people not to get educated especially in a world that demands college educations to get any jobs, is absurd.

 The anti-intellectualism just makes Christians look bad and all we have to do is look at the Duggar adults to seem gaping wide holes of knowledge and a serious lack of reading to see the effects of poor education. Do these types even realize that a lot of our most important colleges like Harvard have Christian roots in their history? They didn't have pastors then saying "education is bad". Christianity was compatible with knowledge. This is the kind of stuff that gets Christians labeled as Neanderthals who hate learning. It makes me sick.

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Enabling of the Evil in Churches

". . .We've been indoctrinated to believe that really faithful Christianity is a continuous flow of positive feelings toward anyone, no matter how evil, when this is not what the Bible teaches at all. Read the Psalms to learn that godliness is not a continuous flow of good feelings toward evildoers.
Satan wants us to feel guilty so that he can keep us enslaved, entrapped, and suffering as long and as much as possible, but it's really okay not to enjoy the presence of someone who continually mistreats you." ~Valerie Jacobsen

 I never can be in a so called "conservative" or evangelical church again as they support my oppressors. Have you ever wondered why the evil seem so loved? Doing this blog as long as I have, their lasting power even in so called "Christian" circles is cemented in. "Christianity" due to the sickening "religious right" is now being connected to political cold hearts.

                                         from religionnews.com

Why were death panels considered so bad when Obama was in charge but now the "evangelical" Republican world remains silent as Paul Ryan and others go for the jugular of the poor, disabled and elderly? Don't they realize that if Medicaid and Medicare are cut to nothing, millions won't have medical care. I almost died in my 20s from lack of medical care and insurance. Sure, the ER would scrape me off the ground and get me breathing again but then I was sent out into the street to fend for myself.  In other words, they got the "Christian" world now cheering for the defacto death panels. The last type of person I want to talk to, is another one who tells me health care is a privilege.  




I got sick of being told for years to grovel before wicked men and to make excuses for them. The churches that said astrology loving Reagan was a caring man who wanted to change the world for the better were wrong. The reality was he started this country on it's downward descent. Now I am supposed to believe a blonde raving narcissistic sociopath is a "Christian" and has my best interests at heart? Are you joking? Weren't you there in the 1980s when that guy was rolling around raving about "sexy women" and bragging of his back-stabbing real estate deals?

We are supposed to "embrace" the vampires, with smiles on our faces ignoring evidence right in front of ourselves, while these wicked men run roughshod over us and gaslight us to death. Fool me once shame on you [cough Bush] Fool me twice shame on me [Trump]. What is wrong with the "Christian" evangelical world? It sickens me. My level of outrage is high, knowing because of my personal circumstances, I'll be one of the first for the death panel "culling" and the Republican pogrom against the poor. My hope remains in the Lord, but I see the suffering of others happening now, and there will be more to come in the future.

This applies to the personal too. Some ask why is there so much sex abuse in churches, over the years far more then just the Catholic priests got exposed, and well one reason, is many are taught to enable and coddle the evil. There is something in human nature where they love the "strong" men, the tough and the mean. This is why we never get dictators who are "nice" while they keep the trains running on time but go on killing sprees. The clueless "Christian" set always seem to vote for the meanest guy in the room.

                                         from undermuchgrace.blogspot.com

One thing I have noticed in churches is the abused often are shamed, they never are defended. Their abusers get all the mercy. This is why Trump's crushing of the national weak and vulnerable is embraced by the churches. Right now in most churches, I would be judged as the "bad" one for fleeing abusers. Have any of you ever heard Ephesians 5:1 ever preached in the churches because I sure have not. How many pastors have preached, FLEE THE WICKED? Instead we are told to forgive them, give a chance, especially the ones who NEVER REPENT.

Eph 5.7 Be not ye therefore partakers with them.

The evil that is enabled on the NATIONAL level is enabled on the PERSONAL level too. People bow down before the wicked they are afraid of them and do everything to keep them happy while throwing their victims under the bus. I've seen those dynamics too many time. Lack of empathy and feelings are praised while feelings and conscience are diminished.  I can always tell when a narcissist has entered the room because everyone is bowing over backwards to please them and give them the attention and supply they soak up like sponge. Since so many pastor-ships run on getting attention and money, a certain personality type has come to dominate within the pulpits. There is a reason in our wicked culture the wicked have ascended to great heights with the use of media and the consolidation of wealth. Watching churches praise the most wicked is beyond sickening. We are told constantly to shut down our minds and "give understanding" and to "compromise". 

Pastors preach complete nonsense. I sat in the last IFB being told I should set variance aside with family and forgive and "go back". I left a connected family that openly mocked the gospel--once demanded my silencing of anything related to the gospel and demanded a commitment to Roman Catholicism to "deserve" the good 6 figure jobs and other benefits they passed between themselves. I walked from almost my entire family with only a few cousins left. I dealt with people involved in complete and utter wickedness and there I sat in a church pew, having freed myself from abusers, narcissists and sociopaths to get the usual dead lie that it was my "responsibility" to forgive and forget and if I did not go back and re-welcome the wicked in my life, God was going to deny me forgiveness. How did this pair with Jesus's warnings about divisions from family? How about the multiple exhortations to flee the wicked and have nothing to do with them?

The one thing that angers me the most is the constant DEADENING of consciences. One is told to ignore intuition, or even the small still voice of the Holy Spirit. I have had God warn me directly. Even with the spiritual abuser, I had dreams I worried about as I sought to disengage myself from her. I was warned of one woman who was local and whose son was a public and open Satanist [OTO member etc] and it's good I listened. No church has ever preached one simple basic about the wicked, they seek to appear "good". THEY WEAR MASKS. Christians are left as completely naive, told to shut down their minds and brains and take everyone and everything at face value. Why do you think the rotten preachers who even get "found out" are able to have second come backs? It's this attitude that enables them. The pastors all the time make excuses for the wicked and the wicked world system. 

If you ever have been a victim of a crime or had a sociopath in your life, the first thing about them is they try to appear as your "friend" or if they directly are abusing you, they are convincing everyone around them how "loving" they are. Those who don't listen to their guts, that warning cry inside pay dearly for it. The Bible wants people to listen to their conscience and God-given discernment and warning bells. We don't need pastors behind the pulpit telling us all how everyone is basically good.

I've written about the rarefied world presented from church pulpits, the one where one's family is always loving, there's a good job to be had by all, and an idealized world. You see this nonsense expressed especially in the Quiverful world. I know this blog offends a lot out there, because I have said it over the years, a faith that doesn't stand up to the real world is no faith at all. 

Scripture warns us in multiple places there are people of absolute darkness. 

Isaiah 6:20 For, behold, the darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness the people: but the LORD shall arise upon thee, and his glory shall be seen upon thee.




Many in the churches want their people living in fantasy land. It is a fantasy land that leaves them vulnerable to deceit and narcissistic seared people who wish to exploit them. It is a world of spiritual abuse. It's a fantasy land where politicians all have our best interests at heart, all parents are loving, no one's trying to rob or rape you or spiritually destroy you. I always felt I was kind of intense for church people, sitting in the pews, listening to the women talk about their house decorating, being told that Bush was a great president, being told that I should seek "self-reliance" in a world where my body had failed and jobs were taken away from my husband at the drop of a hat. I often felt like a false fantasy world was being shoved down my throat that had little bearing on my actual reality. I wonder if this is worse in fundamentalist churches. Their banal fantasy world of tea-time, and imaging the 1950s as an ideal time was just a covering for the enabling of evil. Let's put a "mask" on life itself and not talk about reality. This is why so many now in the evangelical churches have become flying monkey enablers for the growing tyranny and oppression in the world both political and personal. 

As a low status and disabled person in American society, in this time and place, many evangelicals are calling for my head to be put on a stake, because I've committed the "sin" of being poor and disabled. I am a member of one of the scapegoated groups among minority races and others for my dependence on Social Security. It means something when the vulnerable are always put on the political firing line and the lies reach to the ceiling. The "I got mine" Republicans don't even understand my day to day reality, I've spoken with enough of them, nor do they care. I am sure some will protest the left, but what does that even mean, when both sides have taken us to this place? Stop trying to gaslight me. I don't believe in your Ayn Rand "free market" Republican fantasies either.

This is why in as far as American evangelical churches why the poor are often shamed and told you do not deserve any medical care or food. Obamacare was far from perfect but the land of no options is basically just throwing people under the bus. On the personal level abused people, are told they must "forgive" their abusers, and they must be the one in the wrong. if you ever find yourself surrounded by sheep's in wolf's clothing sociopaths, you will find out soon as they smear and lie their way across the land, people tend to believe them more. Breaking through their lies is very difficult. Many are not interested in truth and would rather bow before power and cunning, instead of seeking truth.

Have any of you wondered why hard core evil is not discussed in the churches? Sure one hears the "safe" and constantly trotted out "cultural warrior" topics. We are all supposed to be shuddering in fear of the "homosexuals", even though most sit in pews with only a few closeted ones but have you ever wondered why various soul murderers, liars and others are not warned about? Could it be there's too many in the pulpit who would get exposed if the core basics about malignant narcissism were taught?  Would too many busy-bodies and other predators in the congregation get outed with their false masks and conniving? How much spiritual abuse could happen in a climate where people were called out to be honest and truthful instead of showing a false self righteousness. What about a world where Christians could be REAL?

The churches warn of the homosexual, tattooed, and non-believer crowd, as the "boogie-men" to be wary of, but to be frank, I'll take most of them over some of the church sociopaths and closet Luciferians. At least with a biker or a gay guy you know what you are getting, a smiling snake wearing a suit, and holding a Bible can be a lot more dangerous.  There's smiling female snakes too promising "miracles", "prayers" and "deliverance", as well. A lot of non-believers tell me why they fled churches talking about how they felt judged or knives were being sharpened behind backs, I believe them. We got a whole country now under an evil spirit led by the churches.

Imaging trying to warn your average church congregation about how the wicked operate, and how they craft lies. They have been so indoctrinated by false pastors that everyone is naturally good or that true sociopaths are as rare as a one in 10 million Ted Bundy, they'll be ready to throw you out of the room for being "too negative". People don't like the delusional bubbles of their idealized evangelical world popped. Sadly in many evangelical churches, the concept of evil itself is hidden, and not even admitted. Warning of evil and evil people is "negative", it is not having the "best life now".

The worse thing about the churches though, is that when it comes to abusive people, one is told to "forgive" them even as they refuse to repent and to tolerate them. Their victims are often shamed for having unforgiving spirits for not accepting their abuse or tolerating it or remaining door-mats to it. I've never seen abusers called out in the church. One never hears about child abusers being censored or receiving church discipline. The failure towards women who suffer from domestic abuse within evangelical churches is abysmal. She is told to sit there and take it. The man is never confronted by church elders. Anna Duggar being told to stay with a serial molester and cheater, is business per usual in the church world.

I've visited and sat in many churches but I have never heard the topic of ABUSE ever dealt with in ONE church ever. If anything it is shoved under the carpet. The focus of the sermons is always for the abusers and wicked to be "forgiven" and the lucifieran politicians to be "understood". One thing to be noticed too is how the "powerful" and "high status" are lauded in the churches. One of most wicked people I ever have dealt with in my life has a high name in her Catholic church, she has the wealth and a few "good works" to show off with. There are plenty of evangelical counterparts in there with her. Proverbs 17:15 warns of those who "justify" the wicked. Trump as a wicked man is justified in our evangelical churches today along with the lesser known cadre of soul murderers and oppressors. 

One of the many reasons I won't be returning to be a member of the church system, is I cannot tolerate institutions that support my personal open economic and other oppression. I have no interest in places that have no interest in facing reality and who expect me to believe in a fantasy life that does not relate to my own life experiences and what I have battled. I have no interest in pastors, and congregations, that honor soul murderers and abusers and who can't even discern overt wickedness such as in a man like Trump. I got tired of being told to be a doormat for the wicked too.

There is an enabling of evil in the churches and it has grown.

Monday, March 20, 2017

False Prosperity Gospel Worsening



Warning, I am using this video as an example of FALSE PREACHING.

Talk about the wresting of scripture. The prosperity gospel is related to the false teaching of tithing where these false pastors promise wealth to people for giving them 10 percent of their income. He even sadly abuses Psalm 23, "I shall not want" to mean no one will be poor. Also the idea that one can pray to God about what job to take and what to major in college and go step by step so you do not end up poor in this life, is insane. That's a faith destroying message if I ever heard of one. I was praying to God to let my rust bucket car start, a couple weeks ago, it wouldn't, we got socked with another car repair. It's fixed now but according to this guy, I did something "wrong" or "forgot a prayer" and that's why I had "lack" and was then waiting for the bus. How long do people last in these churches if they are not rich? You know false theology is theology that does NOT STAND UP TO THE REALITIES OF THIS WORLD. You know there is an insanity to these false teachers and those who follow them where reality itself is DENIED.

Luke 18: 22 Now when Jesus heard these things, he said unto him, Yet lackest thou one thing: sell all that thou hast, and distribute unto the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, follow me.

23 And when he heard this, he was very sorrowful: for he was very rich.

24 And when Jesus saw that he was very sorrowful, he said, How hardly shall they that have riches enter into the kingdom of God!

25 For it is easier for a camel to go through a needle's eye, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.

Cindy Jacobs Says God Wants Christians To Be Rich So Jews Become Jealous And Convert



The false preachers actually seem to be getting worse by the day, with more nutty theology to impart. Cindy Jacobs of NAR fame mixes prosperity gospel edicts with Christian Zionism.

Church Hunters



This one had a lot of truth in humor. I'm not "church-shopping" anymore myself. Many of us here have left the church system. It does show you what people look for in churches out there. Of course, one thing I noticed is more churches seemed the same then different among a wide range of denominations.

Friday, March 10, 2017

Pope Francis Better to Be An Atheist



This is a couple weeks old, but Pope Francis sure seems to love atheism. In works-based faith, many who know they are hypocrites inside would be running to unbelief. I consider the Popes hypocritical, they preach about the poor while on their gold thrones, though this one attempts to appear more humble then the last.