Saturday, June 4, 2016
Spiritual Warfare on the Personal Level
Isaiah 40:28-31King James Version (KJV)
28 Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding.
29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:
31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
If you get worn out, don't give up on God. I had a bad spiritual test recently with an aunt dying, that I never was able to get out of the clutches of wicked people. She had a very hard life, because of wicked people around her, but unlike me who walked, she stayed.
I found out she died, and the feelings I dealt with were very difficult. This is someone I was prevented from calling or writing to and would not respond to any of my reaching-out. I do believe she died rejecting Jesus Christ, but have no way of knowing for sure.
The coldness and cruelty of some people overwhelmed me. She was banned from the family cemetery and even after she died, some extended family called her rebel and black sheep. I never saw her rebel, if anything she stayed in far too long and got broken down by them. She served as a warning to me.
She was angry at me for becoming a Christian around 10 years ago. She was a very sad broken down person. Dealing with grief, I felt overcome. I felt helpless all these years and felt like "evil had won" when she died. I had imagined a time of reconciliation or even succeeding in reaching out but had failed due to my own limited resources. The whole thing has been very painful for me. I had to sit down and think, she also had her choices to make and unlike me did not walk away from the family members who were cruel and cold. I felt extremely weary.
I had to crawl out of a lot of darkness to even find the light of Jesus Christ. This aunt was lost to the darkness. Wicked people holding mind sway over someone. Watching someone being destroyed and them allowing it to happen, without fighting back was very hard. This event also has told me that I have to part ways from the few I still had contact with. I'm not even telling some, I'm just quietly going. I don't see love or compassion with many of them, they only care about success and station. It's like evil is an infection. It seriously does work that way. It is scary to see people so easily influenced by those they see as more "powerful."
I have spoken about other betrayals too that have happened but this is not an easy world to be a Christian in. When you get upset make sure to wait on the Lord. Don't sin. I had a few sins to repent of. I was so upset. I had to wait on the Lord and just sit back, One person asked me even, "How can you have faith when all these bad things keep happening"? I said whatever choice is there? One thing we have to watch our own grief when it comes to faith and spiritual issues, it can be a challenge. I was scared, I was wondering why God was allowing some things to happen?
I ended a friendship of 30 years duration acouple months ago. Spiritual divisions will come with friends. God showed me a few things about her that were very scary. In the last few months before the end, she had gotten in deep with following the Dalai Lama. I had witnessed to her and had hoped for the best but instead things got worse and worse. She was a long distance friend from college.
She refused the gospel way too many times and I knew there was no hope and had no choice to walk. I had hung in there too long. I face this now with another friend who rejects God and seems to live for the material world. While I enjoy some time with her, she doesn't realize the growing division we have because of this. I even said to her direct, "Why are you living for these material possessions"? She is of means and wanted to buy a bigger house to hold more "stuff". Then there are the church friends, its hard to know what to say. Some I can slowly reach out and succeed but often they are recommending pastors and others to me I know are false. One wants to be loving but here it's hard to know where to draw the lines. I do think with some of us, we will be facing a LOT of DIVISIONS. It's tough. Very hard. I am not someone walking around banging my bible every minute. I do not appear as a pious do-gooder. I have major faults but sometimes I have been troubled thinking, "Will anyone be left?". With the family, the evil was real, I saw destruction of others and lies right in front of my face, but with average folks, sometimes I am not sure what to think.
I do believe people are waxing more cold and doing it quick. People are so closed down now and some are lying more to your face. It's scary. I don't have a family anymore except the family of God. My eyes were opened to some new evils, among those who have shut down and their souls sold out to the system.
I plan to write a new article soon, that will be about some of the changes and mandates I am seeing in society, it will be called "Reforming Personalities for the New World Order".