Sunday, November 29, 2015

Growing Up Quiverful, the Duggar's Destructive Cult



This is a secular based video exposing the Quiverful cult. The commentator seems to be an ex-Scientologist interested in examining cults. I found it interesting since they interview a young girl coming out of the Quiverful cult. Quiverful ideas definitely have infiltrated out into homeschooling, IFB churches and more "conservative" evangelical churches.

The Duggars, Bill Gothard, Vision Forum, and The Quiverful Movement

None of Them Will Tell Us The Truth About Poverty



An ecumenical/NCC connected "Christian" group called "Circles of Protection" has interviewed all the presidential candidates about poverty.

Even "conservative" Ted Cruz, somehow believes the USA can fix the world's poverty. How? When so many Americans are poor themselves? The globalist views have infused everywhere.

My household has recently sunk into worse poverty. It's hard to explain how, but the free-lance/piece-meal work my husband has been doing, and the rising prices are hitting home hard. One thing that is not talked about out there is how a lot of labors have been chopped up into low paying "contract" work. The even poorer millennials are scrambling together often putting together piece-work labors. It's a far harder way to live.

Full time jobs are disappearing far more then is admitted. We have just been able to keep a roof over our head and have not missed a meal yet but the pressures have grown greater. Poverty for most Americans means you face loneliness and rejection. You are not see as a real human being. I have been at the charities and seen the looks of pity. I am going to write an article soon on how "Christians" treat the poor from a more personal perspective soon. This includes the churches which treat you like a "lesser" and like you did something wicked to end up where you did. In America having a proper middle class or above household is almost an expectation for many churches. You truly are an outcast in "Christian" culture. The poor more often then not are NOT members of the churches helping them. The poor are separate. They go to the "community meals" and more but know no church home awaits them because of false teachings, and gung-ho Republicanism. Imagine someone on food stamps, listening to the pastor rail on about "Those who don't work won't eat" and how the poor are sinful and in the next breathe ask for more money. Well I will write on these things in more detail soon.

 Many pay in this society for not selling out in this society to mammon. We have seen huge lines at food pantries and soup kitchens locally in town. These types will tell us "Things are getting better". As I have written before, culturally and socio-economically I do not fit the normal "Christian" world or culture and I left my last church as much over the false teachings as the socio-economic divisions. None of them are fixing the corrupt job system or the outsourcing or facing facts globalism is destroying life for millions if not billions. "Just throwing money at poverty doesn't work", that one made me laugh. Well if no money, do something about the jobs, but we know that won't happen. He's still selling the Ronald Reagan trickle-down theories.



How are they going to fix things with their "right to fire" laws and support of new world order immigration that is most often used for cheaper wages for the elite? It's funny how his videos refer to the disabled when most like this want to cut and slash every program for the disabled to death. They don't do job placement anywhere for the disabled either.

Huckabee's video

Bernie Sanders Video

The Democrat party at least admit the poor exist and the poverty is growing, but they sell themselves as the party of the "little people" while throwing people under the bus just as much as the other side. Bernie Sanders is correct about the working poor having to go to food pantries. They always toss a populist or two in the mix for the early show time to prep things for their NWO choice. Bernie may really "care" about the poor, but don't think for a minute he's going to be allowed in. He has some other scary "liberal" political beliefs to go with the admitting the truth about poverty.



Ah here is Hillary, nice pyramid hands Hillary, she tells us the "economy is improving". You know right then that she is immediately lying. It's only improving for the 1 percent. I actually don't disagree with raising the minimum wage which may shock some here, but then watching people lined up at the food pantries who can't even afford to eat who WORK FULL TIME stinks. It is wicked to make people live in destitution who work in my opinion. Even the Bible speaks of a fair day's wage for a fair day's labor. Hillary gives her nod to the poor while planning worse destruction for this country.

We have poor in this society because of greed and sin. When Jesus said the poor will always be with us, sadly the truth is in this fallen world, too many exploit others and seek out their own gain.

Jan Crouch Speaking in Tongues



This is so fake. This video is from 1982. Even the emotionally laden prayer of Paul Crouch, uses the same fear of Armageddon and healing the USA themes we see now. Jan Crouch's tongue speaking is so false. If you have studied languages and know the patterns of them, tongue speakers appear even more ludicrous. In my early days as a Christian, I visited a few Pentecostal churches and heard almost the same thing from those speaking in tongues. It's all they are all speaking the same non-language, snippets of words and no complete sentences. She repeated a few "words" to make it seem more real. This is all show-boating. I don't believe in Pentecostalism at all. Speaking in tongues is false too.

The Weirdos Who Show Up At This Blog


This showed up on my comments feed today. Some may ask why post this? This freak has been posting on my blog for YEARS sending these strange Illuminati advertisements, I have at least 50 of these back in my spam files. I suppose it's some guy who thinks there is no such thing as the "new world order" or Illuminati, who wants to mock me and this blog but the joke grew old long ago. It's stale. I mean the guy made his point about THREE years ago. Hey at least use believable phone numbers and emails! There's too many strange people out there.

Duggars: Slavish Stepford Wives for the Patriarchy



How much of this is "scripted"? This question was raised on the comments of this article:

"Josh: The Cheater"

This little blurb above doesn't offer much but I found myself thinking will these people do anything for money? My question revolves around Anna Duggar. She may be economically desperate but her own brother offered to help her if the news reports are accurate. The facial mannerisms and comments seem fake. "It was absolutely heartbreaking" she says, and there seems to be very little emotion or anger in her face and mannerisms that would denote the real reaction of a wife dealing with a husband that was reported as cheating with a porn star at least twice.

Perhaps they will fade from the scenes but the damage to Christians, is part of the script. Weak women doing the "stand by your man" bit, to the extreme. We have seen it with a long list of new world order notables like Hillary Clinton. The good old boys club wants acceptance of their cheating and sleeping around. One thing the wicked love seeing is women degraded and enslaved to men who treat them like chattel. Doesn't this woman have any self respect or has she sold her soul too? Maybe she is lying to us. She doesn't seem to even want to protect her own children which to me is her greatest sin.

Feminism has its major problems too, but realize the "controllers" want degraded women, who have no self respect or their own initiative who will remain as placid Stepford wives to the most wicked. This is the "patriarchy" they desire.

Two Sides of the Same Evil Coin: Radical Feminism and Patriarchy

Christian Zionism Remains on the Move Calling for War



More political brainwashing sessions. Evil has happened on both sides. Christian Zionism of course is backing up without restraint, the war plans of the luciferian powers that be. As much as they flippantly speak of nuclear weapons, they don't realize their constant war mongering has helped these powers set up the re-ordering of the global chess board. Even the last church I left blindly "supported" Israel. It was more of a subtle issue only brought up very rarely. How many can even go to church anymore without the 'god of war' being more praised then Jesus Christ? These deceived people see war as glorious when war is death, destruction, endless horrors, children dying and pain and suffering for generations even afterwards. The knowing deceivers which I believe Hagee fits the bill, know exactly what they are selling.

"I Can't Wait for Armageddon!":The Deceptions of Christian Zionism

Saturday, November 28, 2015

The Lust for War Grows



[not an endorsement of Fox news]



Can anyone even keep track of whose fighting who anymore?

You can tell the war-mongers are lighting as many matches as they can to spark off World War III. Some say World War III has already started but just not gone "hot" yet.

Kerry Says Re-Ordering of Middle East is for NWO



A Question About "Deliverance Ministries"

Why do they always consider the abuse victims as having been demonized instead of the abusers themselves? Many abusers are reprobates, what the psychiatrists would call sociopaths, psychopaths or malignant narcissists. If anyone is demonized in the room, it's the abusers.

It's something I have been pondering about a lot of deliverance ministries out there. You seem them on the internet. Some are not technically deliverance ministries but warn of curses and demons on anyone who has gone through turmoil in their lives. Can you see that small taint of the false idea that bad things happen to bad people?

I do not support deliverance ministries. Without naming names, I'll explain more later. Many of the mainstream and known name ones, are definitely false. Sometimes I feel like the powers that be are defended via the entire trend of telling abuse victims and others who have faced hardships, that they were the demonized and "bad" ones and not the people who abused them in the first place. One thing I have noticed, is many people who are severely ill, or who came out of various forms of abuse are definitely re-victimized by people who call themselves "Christians" who lay on this idea that they were "cursed" or so "wretched" that Satan laid his hand on them long ago and their only way out is an endless line of prescribed prayers, rituals, and the rest even if they were born again years ago. It puts another person in a "priesthood" position over another human being.

I don't believe in generational curses either.

John 9 And as Jesus passed by, he saw a man which was blind from his birth. 2And his disciples asked him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind? 3Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him. 4I

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

The Atheist/Unbelief NWO Network #2: Famous Atheist/Freethought Celebrities




I always found Ron Reagan--President Ronald Reagan's son, involvement with the "Freedom From Religion Foundation" to be of interest. It's funny because IFB and right wing evangelical churches see his father Ronald Reagan as some kind of demi-god. Do they know his son went to the opposite side?  Even the folks in my last IFB church constantly praised Ronald Reagan. Surely a father is not responsible for the way a son goes, but these organizations are just as tied in with the powerful and elite.

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Freedom from Religion Foundation has given an award to multiple celebrities:

Emperor Has No Clothes Award
The Emperor Has No Clothes Award has been awarded by the Foundation since 1999 in recognition of “plain speaking" on the shortcomings of religion by public figures.

Past recipients [see the Freedom From Religion Foundation website]

Many of the famous atheists and unbelievers all mark themselves too. Why would secularists and atheists believe in the concept of "Illumination?" Is this telling us they DO believe in some supernatural world despites their claims?  Anyhow we see them make the same gestures as the other connected types in the new world order. They also have no problem with meeting fellow members of the elite.


Richard Dawkins [picture from Pinterest] Why is he doing a Horus eye in his photograph? He wouldn't believe in Horus either if he's a true atheist.



Is this Bart Erdhman? I tried to find a second copy all over online to confirm.  It looks a LOT like him. It was from a Man of the Year contest in some magazine. Well he is loved by the world isn't he?

One sees the same hand signs among the famous celebrity atheist set as they do among the entertainment celebrities.

Why pay homage to the devil if you don't believe he exists?


Where's that freethinking, questioning mind when it comes to cultural precepts? I guess it disappeared for a few seconds.

George Carlin was more well known for comedy but was known to be a famous atheist too, but if you ever saw one of his videos with far too much cussing, someone could give the guy the "most hand signs flashed" award. He was one of those allowed to expose a few truths, but definitely mixed with lies like disbelief in God.



Christopher Hitchens. Not sure about that hand position but he sure seemed to meet with a lot of movers and shakers. I read at least two of his books. "Know thy enemy" and all that. He seemed very elitist.

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Then there was Madalyn Murray O'Hare [warning some mild language warnings and talk against God in this video]





You ever wonder how such a foul mouthed and unattractive woman became so famous? She must have been chosen to fight prayer in school and to help spread atheism on purpose. She didn't rise up based on her own merits, she definitely was chosen and for an agenda.

I followed her articles in the late 1980s as I read the magazine American Atheist. She came across as shrill to me but back then I agreed with her viewpoints.

Today some aspects of her life stand out to me. She tried to defect to Russia with her son. She was the one who filed the case against prayer in school which was won.  Fame came to her easily and she seemed to be a chosen atheist spokesperson within the system. She married basically someone who was a government agent which is definitely a sign of some connections. I don't buy Slate's disagreement with the book UnGodly, it seems to be wall papering over the reality. It is accepted that Richard O'Hair was a government informant of some kind. Even her death was suspicious, as the finances of American Atheist were kept secret and a betraying employee set her up to be murdered as well as her son and granddaughter who worked for the organization.


 
Madalyn O'Hair definitely had a few screws lose and would have been among the seared, the psychologists perhaps would have used terms like narcissistic personality disorder or sociopath. She hired criminals which helped lead her demise and hid money, one book I read about her murder talked about the endless money laundering she participated in and bilking rich atheists of their estates when they died. She definitely had many questionable involvements and her own involvements with the powerful and was given 300 million dollars by Larry Flynt a then well-known pornographer. Definitely this woman was being promoted and allowed a very public forum while having loads of cash unloaded on her by the powers that be.

So the atheist celebrities work in the same ways the "religious" ones do.

Donald Trump's 66th Floor Penthouse Exposes His Idol 'Sun God' Apollo, Son of Zeus



Trump has Apollo all over his apartment. I saw some of the apartment pictures myself in a People magazine. The man has no taste either. Even the very expensive looks cheap, tawdry and from Las Vegas.

Pope Francis: Communion For Lutherans?



Any church that has retained "sacraments" especially the Eucharist teaching is a daughter of Rome and forever linked together. So the Pope inviting the Lutherans to partake of the Eucharist with Catholics is not that giant of a step except to show how far Protestant churches have fallen. There's a few old school hold-outs who may be in a quandary like WELS, they teach that the Pope is the Antichrist but are still stuck in major Catholic errors.

The Daughters.

They Are Getting Their War in Syria





“The easiest way to gain control of a population is to carry out acts of terror. [The public] will clamor for such laws if their personal security is threatened”. - Josef Stalin

or clamor for more war.

Let's dial back to some old articles:

War Drums: More on Syria

War With Syria?

Even the Generals Don't Want the Insane War with Syria but AIPAC Does!




They didn't manage to sell war with Syria in 2013 and 2014 which is why some new atrocities could bring forth the desired war.


If you watched much news on the terrorist attacks in Paris, did you notice the name of the band Eagles of Death? How obvious can you get? Did you see the picture of multiple rock fans making devil's horns as they went to their concert? Even the poster advertising the event had the hand sign of devil's horns right on it. Not very subtle is it?


I noticed this one had the false flag markers on it too....crisis actors, etc.


I tend to think this stuff is just more disinformation mixed with some truths, sure they have some crisis actors in the mix, but I believe people really die in these attacks. If they conduct wars where thousands or millions will die, why would they just 'fake' the deaths of dozens of people? I really wonder about the conspiracy websites who almost want to portray the controllers of this planet in a merciful light.

Obama calls on Russia to focus on war against IS in Syria
France goes to war with Isis in Syria

The Atheist/Unbelief NWO Network #1: Support for World Government




All the systems are being converged by the controllers. This means they are taking the churches to the same place as many other organizations. This includes what I will refer to as "The unbelief network". There is a reason that atheists support globalism just the same as Dominionists.

Atheism itself is under the same "control system". Now some are going to call me crazy with this one. But it is true. Every religion and philosophy known to man on this earth, has been utilized in this way. One way to state this is that atheists are stuck in "the matrix" too. Just like brain-dead Republicanism rules the world of the evangelical, brain dead Democratic beliefs hold majority sway. Every atheist I've ever met with a few exceptions has been pro-choice [abortion] and has held the stereotypical "progressive" beliefs. Why are there so few exceptions to this rule?

The majority of the freethought, humanist, atheist, world teaches the same brain dead leftist politics.  One of those tenets is the advancement of globalism and the one world government on behalf of the elite.




Both right and left wings are supporters of the consolidation of power, and one world government. Why? Because the controllers on top are merging every demographic to the same end.

I always found the nearly same title of these magazines interesting..

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Beyond the title WORLD, one being Christian and one the magazine for the Unitarian Universalist Association, both are very world focused and politically focused.  I have read both magazines for years. I have read World the Christian magazine enough to know while it is more "right-winged" flavor it is Dominionist in outlook, It is not good for a church magazine to name itself after the WORLD:

John 15;19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.

I saw the same status seeking among the free-thought crowd as I have among false Christians. However I got burned too by the wealthy atheists, New Agers and intelligentsia in the Unitarian Universalist church as well almost in the same way. The Unitarian Universalist church is one the wealthiest denomination in America.  They even admit it among themselves. I did not fit in its typical demographics. I saw the same conformity of thought, there too.

  Lest one think the atheist network, is free of the new world order and controllers think again! They are as controlled and directed as the right wing.

The seekers I can handle, because I was one. Anyone who has a love and desire for truth is someone that we hope and pray finds God. The Bible mentions those who love truth.  I remember being in my 20s and thinking, "I don't believe in God now but if there is a God I want to know for sure". I tested everything. I read books on comparative religions. Some may have called me more technically an agnostic, but there was this idea of God not being there whatsoever and that the universe was just a mechanical machine. Of course atheists have no explanation for where the universe came from to begin with.

This is the reason evolution came into as the gospel of "atheism". The two go hand in hand. Natural selection and organic evolution are the beliefs that are never questioned. When I was Unitarian Universalist this bothered me. There were "holes" in the system so to speak. One could see patterns in the world, why did trees have branches like the vascular system in the human body? Why did animals have two eyes mostly? Where did these things come from? These patterns were obvious to me, and I knew they could not have been by random. I can take an honest atheist who would frankly say, "We don't know for sure", but who wouldn't cling so absolutely to the sinking sand of evolution. Science while helpful in some things, seemed to have it's biases. The days of being told rationality and science would cure all human problems to me became laughable. The scientists to me seemed very invested in inventing new ways to die for war and scary bio-engineering projects rather then bringing any new Utopia.

Because they believe that science can fix the world's problems, this is connected to the desire for world government and unity. Progress in "science" is fixing the problems of the world "globally". Why do you think so many world leaders and the Pope call for the world to unite over climate change?

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The atheist/freethought/humanist world is just as much as a part of the new world order as anything else. The Unitarian Universalist church is definitely is hooked in. Just like the supposed Christian churches all joined to the United Nations. One would surmise that freethought would mean questioning some of the power structures, but this stance seems to be taken for granted.



One huge facet of the Unitarian Universalist church was advancing world government.  They have nicer names for it, calling for a peaceful and just world in their 7 principles but it is the same idea. It was actually a stated fact, that the UU church supported world government. I saw this among others in the "free thought" community including the Humanists. What was ironic to me is while some in these groups protested totalitarian governments and diminishing freedoms, is they never questioned the further consolidation of power. I had one UU minister who was even a member of an early one world government organization. I believe it was called the World Federalists. They all openly supported the United Nations, and the world coming together for "climate action" as early as the 1980s.


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The Humanist Networks [The Humanist, Ethical Society of Humanists] all supported world government without fail. Humanists support the United Nations. Freedom From Religion Foundation has donated money to a United Nations affiliated charity. Humanists appeal to the United Nations. Do you notice something here, such as they like the Pope want world government to deal with the problems of climate change and other environmental problems? From the book, "The Humanist Society".


Isn't it strange how all these atheist and unbelief networks all support world government? What would not believing in God have to do with supporting the consolidation of global power?  Is this from watching too much Star Trek, where the Federation of Planets is seen as a positive organization? Odd isn't it how so many of them agree on this issue isn't it? Well spiritually it isn't odd, human pride, hubris, greed and sin, has many coming together to the same place.

When I was an atheist, I already considered world government a bad idea. Maybe it was because I had read 1984 and many books on totalitarian governments. There's a few Naomi Klein influenced anti-globalists out there in liberal/atheist and unbelief circles but the majority of the "official organizations" are joining the convergence for the one world government along with the churches.

Atheist Heads UN Religion Committee.

Secularist Organizations


Thursday, November 12, 2015

False Religious Right Busy Shoving Christmas Down Everyone's Throat



Every year the "Merry Christmas" set goes ballistic. Not everyone celebrates Christmas. I certainly do not. Must we have it shoved in our faces every minute? For the non-believers, all these types of fights do is create more animosity and rejection of the gospel. This meme says it all considering the "pagan goddess" on the cups.


As for the Christmas trees:



Warning People About Christmas is Not Easy

Another Name with an Agenda?



When the last Duggar grandchild was named Israel, there was an obvious agenda there, to help advance Christian Zionism. Maybe it's time for Calvinism to get a turn? Charles Spurgeon is an interesting teacher to many, many young Christians will read his writings, and not realize the depth of Calvinism beyond them. Maybe it will be a blessing for that child not to be in public school prone to bullies with a name like that.

Spurgeon was definitely a Calvinist.

"The late lamented Mr. Denham has put, at the foot of his portrait, a most admirable text, "Salvation is of the Lord." That is just an epitome of Calvinism; it is the sum and substance of it. If anyone should ask me what I mean by a Calvinist, I should reply, "He is one who says, Salvation is of the Lord." I cannot find in Scripture any other doctrine than this. It is the essence of the Bible. "He only is my rock and my salvation." Tell me anything contrary to this truth, and it will be a heresy; tell me a heresy, and I shall find its essence here, that it has departed from this great, this fundamental, this rock-truth, "God is my rock and my salvation." What is the heresy of Rome, but the addition of something to the perfect merits of Jesus Christ—the bringing in of the works of the flesh, to assist in our justification? And what is the heresy of Arminianism but the addition of something to the work of the Redeemer? Every heresy, if brought to the touchstone, will discover itself here. I have my own private opinion that there is no such thing as preaching Christ and Him crucified, unless we preach what nowadays is called Calvinism. It is a nickname to call it Calvinism; Calvinism is the gospel, and nothing else. I do not believe we can preach the gospel, if we do not preach justification by faith, without works; nor unless we preach the sovereignty of God in His dispensation of grace; nor unless we exalt the electing, unchangeable, eternal, immutable, conquering love of Jehovah; nor do I think we can preach the gospel, unless we base it upon the special and particular redemption of His elect and chosen people which Christ wrought out upon the cross; nor can I comprehend a gospel which lets saints fall away after they are called, and suffers the children of God to be burned in the fires of damnation after having once believed in Jesus. Such a gospel I abhor.

Why I am not a Calvinist

Thursday, November 5, 2015

My Days as an Atheist

I used to be an atheist.

Anyone reading my testimony on this blog knows this. In the Unitarian Universalist church, I had my Theosophy/New Age years but also my freethought/humanism/agnostic/atheist ones as well.





When I was just ten years old, I announced to my very angry parents and anyone in earshot that I did not believe in God. I had read Thomas Paine who was more technically a Deist who wrote against Christianity. I would be sent to the principal's office in elementary school time and time again out of religion class for questioning Roman Catholic theology. One time in Catholic school religion class I shouted,  "Purgatory makes no sense and sounds like a lesser hell!". My nun teacher dragged me off to the priest's rectory for our red-faced angry priest to give me a talking to. She was so angry. She asked for me to be removed from her class.

Religion in my household was more to do with rituals and rites.  While we were taken to Mass at every moment and told to say the rosary, and not to eat meat on Friday it was all empty rituals. Even asking questions about God in my household could mean being punished. The only Bible in the house was this giant white leather Catholic bible with a Medieval painting of "Mary" and baby on the front of it. We were forbidden to touch it, though at times I sneaked it off the shelf to read hoping not to get caught. This was around the time, I read "Late Great Planet Earth" from the public library and had it taken away by the nuns. So as the Catholic church and my family worked to squelch any real faith in God, I very early on was making more and more of a decision for atheism and by a very young age too.

Why did I become an atheist?





Religions and churches didn't measure up. I watched all the phony televangelists of the 1980s as a teen and became nauseous. The inconsistencies and legends of Roman Catholicism didn't add up to me even as a child. Why does God want me to kneel before a piece of bread? The nuns would lead my class to kneel at church for an hour or half of more of sustained silence staring intently at the white disc.  Some of us would wonder if it would bleed spontaneously like one of the miracles the nuns were constantly reading about to us. Eucharistic Adoration was incredibly boring and I kept thinking if God was intelligent enough to make the world, God wouldn't force me to pay homage to a piece of dough.

I can see why people become atheists. This direct statement may surprise some. Hope I do not offend but want to get to the nitty gritty of why I became an atheist.  I became an atheist knowing I was being sold a bill of religious goods. Church was play-acting and dead rituals and men with funny hats. The church world is such a decadent, hypocritical place. It has worsened, it has fallen away. Even allowing for the normal wickedness of human beings, the churches seem more wicked. There is one good thing about atheists. Atheists often are "thinking" people. They don't become a religion because Mom and Dad told them to be it.  They reject the idea of inherited religion with no examination as intellectually dishonest. I still agree with this. They aren't following cultural precepts to worship that saint or offer sacrifices to that god at a temple because they were told to. Some are asking, "Is any of this real?" Some want to know what is true.

and I certainly did.

One thing that actually affected my "atheism" and I've mentioned this before, is realizing that Santa Claus was a lie. I was punished for telling my younger sister, that "There was no such thing as Santa Claus" and remember thinking at that time, "If they lied to us about Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy", why should I believe anything else they say about God? So I mean it when I say that the false Christmas rituals of telling a child about Santa Claus can lead that child right into the atheist doorway because it did me.

Because of  abusive parents--that's a long and sordid story in itself, with the Catholic church mixed together, I saw the "God" they presented me with as cold and cruel very young. My father died an atheist himself, admitting to me, in a private conversation, that he feigned Catholicism to please my mother but really did not believe in it.  Love was not part of the equation. "God" was all about rules and getting it right, and if you failed, that was the end of you. There was no access to the actual gospel of grace until I was in college. I grew up with a feminist nun as my mother's best friend, feeding my head with even more religious nonsense, which helped create the pathway to full blown atheism.

When a girl got murdered on my college campus by a mentally ill man just across the street from the dorm and my aunt died in a fiery car crash in a would be suicide, my atheism grew more entrenched. I thought, "There cannot be a "God" because of how this world really is. I fell into the trap, I warn all the time about on this blog, how many people march to atheism believing that bad things happened to them because they feel "God" allowed it to happen or even made it happen? While the conscience lures people to God who have not heard the gospel, many turn their backs when the tragedies and turmoil of life take over. It doesn't help that many of the false churches preach false prosperity gospels and other "secondary" prosperity gospels that get people to believe either one of two things..."1. Bad things have happened to me because I am bad. [yes sin can bring consequences but this is something different I am talking about]" or 2. "God" has allowed or made these bad things happen to me and does not care about me or others or even "hates" me", that is when the march down atheist highway begins.

I still saw that in the church I left, even though it was IFB and officially against prosperity gospels, one can see among the oppressive Christian set, that the expectations themselves they have for people fulfill many tenets of it, where you are supposed to fit a certain "Christian mold". Years ago I knew I did not fit into the "Christian" world, and I still don't in many ways. There's a lot of faith being destroyed via these false preachers and philosophies.

 In college, I read American Atheist, Free Inquiry, The Humanist, Quest--Theosophy magazine and the Freedom from Religion Foundation's newsletter. I agreed with the outrage against TV evangelists and the like. These were the days of Jim Bakker's fall from grace, and Jimmy Swaggart getting caught. Famous preachers were jokes, and money-grubbers. In the 1980s, this is when the evangelical revolution was beginning, and the marriage between evangelical Christianity and Republicanism was growing more entrenched. Sadly not much has changed today. My atheist/freethought and Humanist magazines also rightly criticized the Pope and Catholic church. My readings including exposures of the Vatican bank by the 1980s.

It's weird but some atheists always seem to think every Christian came out of a Christian home and inherited their religion and never questioned anything their entire life. I questioned the bible, and even owned a library where the books sought to rip the bible to shreds. I read books by Robert Ingersoll, Betrand Russell, Dan Barker, Paul Kurtz, Madalyn Murray O'Hare and everything to be found in the "freethought" library. I was such a gung-ho atheist that once when I visited a relative in Buffalo, New York, I had them drive me over to the Free Inquiry headquarters but they were closed that day.  So I am not someone who just had musings about atheism, I studied it quite intensely.

Proverbs 14:6

A scoffer seeks wisdom and finds none, But knowledge is easy to one who has understanding.

Many come to atheism out of their own intellect.  When atheists write to me that their position is one of the intellect and did not come out of any emotional turmoil they are to be believed. This applied to me too. Atheism is a trap many very smart people can fall into. The Unitarian Universalist church was full of the cream of the crop when it came to the educated and learned. These were wealthy people with Ivy League and advanced graduate educations. All I have is a cheap state college education but I loved to read and learn on my own.



Atheism highly "respects" 'science' and the scientific method. Even though much of our science today is definitely without wisdom as they alter our foods to create more GMOs or weapons that can kill more "efficiently", within the "freethought" community, science is held up as a very good thing. Darwin even though his hypothesis about evolution, has many holes would be a named saint of the "freethought' movement. However during my atheist days, being an honest seeker, I would ask myself, "Well how did all THIS get started then?" None of my UU ministers ever answered that question. The very idea that the structural and complex system of life just arose out of muck one day never made sense to me. It was a thing that needled away at me.

Romans 1:20 For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse:

So Atheism or perhaps more technically agnosticism seemed the more intellectually astute position to me at this time. I bought what was said about rationalism, even though a small voice inside me said, "Its obvious they have holes in their position". Yes, I did sin and persecute a few Christians, during some of these youthful days, mocking them for not examining their positions. Sadly my meeting with Christians who knew any scripture or preached with the leading of the Holy Spirit was extremely rare.

1 Cor  2:14 But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned.

 Scripture warns us about many times all the book learning in the world is not going to bring forth all truth.  I questioned and studied all the world religions. Some of what I post today on this blog is from those days of studying comparative religions. I noticed patterns and trends between religions, man's approach "gods" to appease them, sun worship, the astro-theology patterns exposed by some, the overlap of "gods" especially the "goddess" under different names, I researched and studied it all.

If someone is a honest seeker and happens to be an atheist, their questions do not bother me. Even that one ex-Christian IFB pastor now atheist's website does not surprise me. I noticed going way back to his earliest postings, he is upset and offended and rightly so by the actions of evangelical "Christians".  He has mocked me several times since I left, especially over my fairies article and a reprint of the NWO aspects of Windows 10 from another blog. In this very old post, I noticed he is outraged by the war mongering among the evangelical right. It seems this was written before his full leaving into atheism. It sounds like articles I have posted on this blog. After all I walked out of the last church for it's war mongering and even told one friend, "That place was worshiping Mars the god of war more then the God of the Bible!"

I have met atheists who are new world order aware even, who I have had interesting discussions with and offered them scripture and the gospel. There are people out there, who are struggling with the false religion "matrix" blocking them from God. They need as much truth as they can get. The system that John marvels at in Revelation, is this false church system. It is a barrier to God. Atheists don't fighten me. I used to be one. I know how they think. Yes many get mad at me. I can take it, after all I dished it out once upon a time.  Some say "You are crazy!". Others have given me the "nice" tolerant answers, "Whatever gives you comfort..." 

In the UU church, they do have their "freethought" wing as well as the more "new age, theosophical" wing. The two can combine at times. We know false religion can do plenty of mix and match sessions. Some atheists or thinking agnostics go to church. Which may sound weird to many people but atheists like fellowship, coffee hours and classes too. The UU church also had political opportunities for your liberal budding atheist. A college best friend who shared my same non-religious leanings at the time, introduced me to the Unitarian Universalist church.




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There are some atheists who would be shocked that someone like me even exists. If you have read my testimony I was a Unitarian Universalist from the age of 17 to 30. I remember one time sitting in the Unitarian Universalist church and a church acquaintance coming up to me and saying, "No one ever leaves the UU to become a Christian, by the time they are here, they know the truth!" 

Dogmatism isn't just for fundamentalist Christians even if within the UU dogma itself is considered optional. The UU church openly preached against Christianity and it's beliefs. The scandals of the Christian world were fodder for many a sermon disproving "Christianity". Notice the above ad for the UU church sells their church, to those fed up with the false "god" found in so many churches. One church class I had in the UU was called LEAVING RELIGION, and there was many of the Mustard Tree's refugees in there. There was me, an ex-Catholic, other ex-Catholics, and Methodists and acouple ex-Orthodox Jews, and even one ex-nun who I befriended somewhat and gave me rides back to my apartment. She told us horror tales of being made to clean the floor with toothbrushes in her cloistered convent and other invented punishments given to her by an abusive Mother Superior. She appeared to have a thousand yard stare, and was a very fragile person. This does not surprise me now not at all.  The UU at least in the late 80s served as a meeting place for various spiritually abused and others seeking refuge and solace.

I almost died as an atheist, I was 21 years old and had a severe asthma attack which was one of many that put my heart into atrial fibrillation.  I expected nothing but blackness and non-consciousness to meet me at the end. This would not be my first meeting with near-death either. My health is poor and it has been for my entire adult life. When I speak of escaping hell by the skin of my teeth it's true.

If my faith was based on the "church system", I'll be frank, doing this blog, since funnily I expose actually some of the SAME things the atheists shout about rightfully, it would have been long gone. Even the utter collapse of the IFB in my mind as a worthy alternative, while it has changed some of my thinking, has not destroyed my faith. One atheist friend of my husband announced to me, since I told him why I left my most recent church, "The best Christians are those who don't go to church". That statement said a lot. 

My relationship with God stands outside of the "church system". Some of the cynics and present atheists would shout that I have found a God of my own creation but then they see only the "god" being sold now by the false preachers and system. I am not a narcissist who has new prophecies to give or wants to sell a "god of my own making". People need to go read the bible for themselves and take the church lens off of it. They ignore the Bible or listen to how false preachers skew it. The cruel "god" of control, who always votes on the side of the world's oppressors and for the extremely wealthy and for "war". The one running the "right wing". Yes the "right wing" is evil but the atheists and others run to the trap on the other side.

The church system is the load of rot with it's rituals, rites, and love of the system that oppresses mankind. Some independent minded people see it for what it is, a control matrix, to funnel and mold political beliefs and direct the herd via the world controllers. Many of those people are Christians like me.

There is a reason just about every evangelical church teaches the same brain dead Republican politics. Have you ever thought about this? Why isn't there any maverick preachers or ones who have considered things like the writer and readers of this blog?  I found one guy once {Last Trumpet Ministries} who seemed to warn of the new world order but sprinkled endless dabs of numerology in all his preaching. I visited so many churches trying to find a church home, and it is their sameness now that stands out. All had that apostate blue and white flag waving on stage and the same beliefs. We have only seen them grow more insane over the years. Even the liturgicals and evangelicals have joined together in this community.

Of course the church system is mistaken as being all about God, and representative of Jesus Christ when in fact God's Word warns against THE MUSTARD TREE and it's lust for world power and control. It does not shock me that even some who were within the false church system leave it and leave who they thought God was behind. Some of us make the mistake and this applies to me, when I was newly saved, I saw most churches are false but believed more were real out there. Today a clearer picture has come into view. Even coming out of the Catholic church, the Holy Spirit let me know there was a vast array of cults and false daughters and teachings to avoid. Sadly even many of the independents and others are part of the system. Every IFB I've seen has had the "Christian" kingdom flag up on their podium. What does that say but they are part of it. It didn't escape my attention that all the Lutherans had this flag on the podium as well as the IFB I attended.



Some run from the churches and think God cannot be real, this system is so corrupt and disgusting and it's people are no better then average non-believers. I wrote about Mean Christians twice myself on this blog some years ago. Why wouldn't they think that? When I was a young non-believer, I encountered some Christians who were in a reformed cult in my area, who were literally abusive. I was listening to some U2 song on the radio, a band I fully reject now, and was told I was a heathen listening to the "devil's music". None witnessed to me but shouted at me that I would go to hell. I was on the way to hell back then but none of them presented any gospel message or love. I have been burned myself recently very badly in this case by church Christians and other betrayers. One thought I have about the Christian world right now is many want to APPEAR GOOD but not actually BE GOOD.

Matt 23:28 Even so ye also outwardly appear righteous unto men, but within ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity.

Such types have had no inward change, no regeneration and no relationship with God. There's a lot of phonies leading people to disbelief in God. I hate the "Christian" culture. The atheists hate it too. The difference is they define God by the Christian culture and I do not. However I was in their exact place. I used to think before I read scripture and God's Word cut through all the garbage like a knife, that I was too poor and wicked to become a Christian, then I read that verse about Lazurus at the gate with his sores going to heaven. [Luke 16:20] I too had my fill of the perfect patrol and mean church women who expected perfect housekeeping judging me. I was so far away from God, it is only His Word that led me to Him. 

Abusers abusing in the name of God. We have the Duggars inoculating many against Christianity with their pompous do-gooder false mentalities and show off attitudes. Sadly I have encountered people like this in the regular world. I was told if I was less wicked, I would become wealthier and would no longer be poor in many a church. I was told that by Christians who I thought were more mature in the faith when I was a new Christian that if I rid myself via my endless wickedness, that God would deliver me from all my problems. One thing I always wonder about deliverance ministries, is they always focus on the victims of abusers as being demonized instead of the abusers themselves. Are they simply another vehicle for the controllers this way?

There's too many fakes out there, and many many people are trying to fit into a mold of "Christian" they have been given by the world. It's like everyone in their mind has a caricature they are trying to live up to.The atheists are rightly tired of the phonies, the fakes, the do-gooders, who use charity like a machete and their messages that oppress.  I am sick of it all too.



False teachings about prayer and acting like God is supposed to be their fairy god mother is producing many atheists. I suppose the atheists see more results from science then they do this phony version of prayer. But when prayer is sold in the apostate church as a "gimme" venture instead of a conversation, this is what happens.

 Many Christians preach especially to the chronically ill too, that if they have enough faith they will be cured. How many times have I heard this? Let me be frank, it hurt me and hurt me bad. There is always the implicit message underneath the words that if you have not been cured, that you are a "bad" "undeserving" person. I saw one atheist website mocking how amputees never have their limbs grow back from prayer. That's an example of false theology leading straight to disbelief.

What of the people who aren't healed? In my case, I have lived far longer then expected. I do believe God gave me more years of life, but this view of seeing God as an ATM machine has spread through "Christianity". The atheists see the false attitudes and views of God. One thing I believe that makes for many an atheist as I mention above, is the false message that God is the author of evil, so when the many horrible things in life happen many people blame God and turn their backs on Him. Human nature being what it is, their natural inclination is then to say, "God does not exist".

 The "best life now" garbage is providing poisonous fruit. Think about it, if all these "Christians" see God as an ATM machine, then the ones who are suffering, and have family and friends die like everyone on this planet blame God and turn their faces against Him. The failure to "get real" among Christians is destroying the faith for many.  The failure to discuss life as it is, instead of this ideal that does not match this wicked fallen world we live in, is misleading people. "God" is seen as a betrayer for not acting like "superman" and stopping disasters or allowing "bad" things to happen. I see this theme over and over again in unbelieving friends and others. "God does not care", "Ioo many bad things happen in this world for there to be a God". The churches have only HELPED these attitudes with their false teachings.




Atheists are being produced in this society by the scores. Even within my own lifetime, I am seeing more young people embrace atheism. When I was an agnostic, UU, atheist, humanist, later theosophist, I was a one off, a rarity, who faced social censure for my then non-beliefs. It was not a common place to be. I was the first atheist in the family. Now most don't go to church 30 years later.  We were on the fringes. I saw my then beliefs become far more mainstream. It's more common for a young person not to be a Christian today even a mainstream dead church one.

I consider it a miracle I even became a Christian.  Reading God's Word, did it, even though I studied the Bible to "disprove it". This verse definitely showed what happened to my life.

Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

I pray for anyone who is an honest seeker and an atheist. They are out there. We should not be afraid to talk to them. The false apostate church system is a barrier in front of millions if not billions.


See:

Atheists and Job 38

Are Ex-Atheist Christians Rarer than The Dodo Bird?

[next up an article on the Freethought/Atheist organizational ties to the NWO--they are being merged into the one world order too along with the churches]

Suicide And Substance Abuse Spike White, Middle Aged Death Rate





Other groups and minorities have suffered greatly and have had higher death rates for decades, but this article makes it obvious Generation X isn't doing as well as the Baby Boomers and older Americans. Generation X has hit it's 40s and 50s. While they point to substance abuse as a cause, the dying economy has more to do with it too. It has not escaped my notice that people of my generation seem far more ill and are dying younger then their parents.  Baby Boomers and older Americans hold 47 more times the wealth then Generation X and the millennials.

In my old rural town, some people were finished by their 50s with chronic illness and some of these folks had been clean-living but under incredible stress for years, and had no decent jobs or medical insurance. While drugs have played a part, the economic realities are in the forefront too. The middle class is dying and some are literally dying younger because of the changes to their lives. One video does discuss the economic implications: [mild language warning:]



There are spiritual implications here too. There are not only physical costs to the decay of society, greed and drug use, but spiritual ones as well. Life spans are growing shorter.  People are giving in to despair with the suicide rate skyrocketing. The social break down of society via corruption and sin is evident in these numbers. When I was young they always spoke of "progress" and told me as a teen how we would live into our early 100s.
It was all deception.

Proverbs 10:27 The fear of the LORD prolongeth days: but the years of the wicked shall be shortened.

The Vanishing Male Worker

Michael Snyder Considers Jim Bakker a Prophet!



This one is laughable. Isn't Snyder at least in his 40s and old enough to remember the heated dog house that the Bakkers owned? "They warned the Syrians were coming", is such a loaded statement. Yes, anything to get the evangelical right on board with the latest war! Michael Snyder discusses prophets in the church being kicked out and then says, "They don't want to listen to Jim Bakker!" So has Snyder gone Pentecostal since he says, "I didn't believe in speaking in tongues." They are skewing bible prophecy so much. The focus remains on what is coming to America! Hey folks, there is the whole rest of the world out there too! Hmm hasn't he heard the lawyer jokes, as if being a lawyer makes someone more trustworthy? As for prophets today, most are false. Jim Bakker given his fruits and teachings is not fulfilling the tenets of an Acts 2:17 prophet.

1 John 4:1 - Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Vatican Hit by New Claims of Financial Corruption



It's smoke and mirrors about any real financial clean-up happening. Satan's puzzle palace isn't planning on cleaning itself up for real. These are possible puff-pieces meant to promote Francis as a "reformer".  If you know about the Vatican bank, these are games they have played for centuries.

"The Vatican Bank Is Reportedly Under Investigation For Laundering Millions For A Mafia Godfather"

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

"Negligence Lawsuit Filed Against IBLP"

Negligence Lawsuit Filed Against IBLP


"Late yesterday afternoon we received an email from a Texas-based law firm notifying us that a lawsuit had been filed against the Institute in Basic Life Principles (IBLP) and its current board members, John Stancil, Anthony Burrus, Gil Bates, Timothy Levendusky, Stephen Paine, and David York. The lawsuit (which we have reviewed in its entirety) was filed by five women who allege they experienced “sexual abuse, sexual harassment and inappropriate/unauthorized touching” while “participants, interns, or employees of IBLP.” Four of the plaintiffs have previously published their accounts here on Recovering Grace.

One of the law firms representing the plaintiffs is owned by David Gibbs III. You may recognize that name because his father, David Gibbs, Jr., has a long-standing relationship with Bill Gothard and the IBLP organization. In fact, it was Gibbs, Jr., who conducted the “internal investigation” paid for by the IBLP board in early 2014 (for a refresher of those events, review our response to the IBLP board statement from June 2014). Gibbs III has previously been quite outspoken against his father’s work, stating that it “helps cover for alleged and/or eventually convicted abusers, or the churches or ministries they work for.

The lawsuit, which was filed in the Circuit Court for Dupage County (Illinois), alleges that IBLP was negligent over the past several decades by failing to properly address alleged sexual abuse and harassment by IBLP employees and that IBLP failed to properly report known or suspected abuse to the proper authorities. The lawsuit further alleges that IBLP’s conduct was “wilful and wanton” because IBLP demonstrated an “utter indifference to and/or [a] conscious disregard for a substantial risk of harm” to the plaintiffs, and that IBLP and its directors engaged in a civil conspiracy to cover up the allegations."

Notice Gil Bates is on that list?

Five Women Sue Bill Gothard's Ministry that has Ties to the Duggars