Saturday, March 28, 2015

Psalm 142


Psalm 142 King James Version (KJV)

142 I cried unto the Lord with my voice; with my voice unto the Lord did I make my supplication.
I poured out my complaint before him; I shewed before him my trouble.
When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path. In the way wherein I walked have they privily laid a snare for me.
I looked on my right hand, and beheld, but there was no man that would know me: refuge failed me; no man cared for my soul.
I cried unto thee, O Lord: I said, Thou art my refuge and my portion in the land of the living.
Attend unto my cry; for I am brought very low: deliver me from my persecutors; for they are stronger than I.
Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shalt deal bountifully with me.
This was a psalm I was reading today. Life sometimes can feel very wearing. There are things disturbing me out in the world and in private life as well.  I'm facing those times of seeing the wicked prosper and wondering why so few care about the Lord or even the same things I do.  Sometimes this world feels so foreign to me and this place of not belonging gets to person. This world is not our home.
 I also have faced my own sins. There have been temptations which so far I have not given into, but it makes me wonder if Satan is on the attack and seeking to crush me lately.  I certainly sinned in smaller matters especially when angry.  Christians will be tested.  I had my time recently where I said to my husband, "Why is God not answering my prayers?"   I am not angry at God, but it's more a feeling of growing old and having regrets about how my life on this earth turned out and frustrations not in seeking self-glory but in things I wanted to accomplish or to have some meaning to it all. Of course the meaning we seek is to be in Jesus Christ not ourselves.  I am showing the Lord my trouble now to overcome these things. Snares definitely were laid for me. God has helped me gain a better place in clearing my mind of the thoughts the wicked had given me many times. There are many on this earth who have felt like "no man cared for my soul."
 It has to do with some personal struggles that are lifelong and related the grief that is tied up to having to depart from wicked family members [obeying God in doing so] and how it has created loss of other relationships. Spiritually toughening up isn't always easy. Sometimes I do feel at a loss and need to pray to God for direction. The psalms are very  important to me in what they convey. I can not feel like a "failure" as a Christian knowing David felt many of the same things and cried out to God. If you ever have one of those days where you feel like you are vexed about life, and feel you have had too many sins to confess and to have repented of, turning to the Psalms is always a good idea. It is literally praying to God to "bring your soul out of prison". I am praying to God to do that very thing right now. 

7 comments:

Gwen said...

Thank you for this, BB. Timely as usual. You're in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

if God puts it into my hands to leave I will, they have been so wicked these last ten years,So much worry watching hurt themselves, daughter get raped, son get beaten in jail and then go to prison, other daughter goes to ITT tech and is enslaved for debt for a worthless degree in video game design, other son using heroin I saw the needles, watching daughter show up next to my bed covered in blood screaming cause she got beat up at the bar, this happened twice I cant sleep well now, daughter dropped off in hall at 4 am left screaming with broken ankle it was hobbled , son comes home with split skin on crown of head covered in blood, police come to my house looking for son for car theft, people threatening us because other son has angered hoodlums, I have gotten ulcers from my stomach to my colon and they refused me medical and when I went to ER they told the doctor that I am having delusions that im in pain, I am so bad off now that I pass out unexpectedly, last time I fell down a staircase, they refuse to stop smoking cigarettes and pot in the house, they aggravate my ulcers, I was in so much pain that I could no longer eat, I am about a size three now, and was fixing to die so much pain I thought if only I could get to a hospice to die not in agony ... it's been ten years and I think God will rescue me, I'm just scared that He means that when I die I'm saved and the pain of dying this way makes me think ill go insane ...
so if He puts it into my hands ... as in I'm too weak and broke and sick to go to a womens shelter .. I need rescue or quick death
with love from
ozmliad

Bible Believer said...

Thanks Gwen

Bible Believer said...

It sounds like you and your family Oz need to get out of Dodge and find a fresh start. Consider going to a new community. Let the adult children leave with you who will go and wise up and leave the unrepentant want to be criminals behind. I feel for the daughter who got the worthless degree. Most degrees are worthless now compared to the job market except for very few good and specialized ones.

I would be dead if I had not left an earthly hell-hole I was living in. We would hear gun shots at night and crime was an ever-present factor. I and husband escaped to the smallest town we could find. I loved that place but sadly economic factors took us elsewhere but I believed leaving saved my life and I was led by God to get out.

I was ready to leave with what I could carry but some help came through so we could do a regular move. Praying for your daughter who was raped and son in jail. If some of your adult children [they are of age] are hurting you and they are involved in criminal enterprises and there is abuse and misery, there is nothing wrong with saving yourself and finding help for your medical problems. All the TV shows and even psychologists [who are wrong about a lot but right about this] say to parents don't get in the danger of enabling drug addicts.

You need to go to a new hospital if those people there will not listen to you or listened to those telling tales. I almost died of undiagnosed medical problems and went to many doctors. It took me time and not giving up to get help. I could have been dead in 1998. My testimony on this blog talks about how I was so sick. I have repercussions today from undiagnosed medical problems but God gave me more years. Do not sit in a town where they have ignored you. Take a bus or get a friend to drive you to a neighboring town's hospital. Kidney stones ripped out my insides and made me barf for a year before they figured it out on another occasion. There are many conditions that can cause inner pain and a decent doctor will figure out if you have Chrohns or colitis or ulcerative colitis. Do try to go off GMO food and mainstream food as much as possible. Eat as close to the earth as possible. The food literally now hurts people's intestines. I know I got some MSG in my system eating away from home yesterday and the resultant pain.

Go to another town and check into their hospital. Let them make you a patient. If you are uninsured and feel the ERs will not test you, Also in every town is a free clinic in America. It may be at a church. Call 211 in your area or contact department of social services and ask them where it is and GO. My household has had to use them before. I have been uninsured before and know this help is hard to get and I was dying as well but you have to fight for yourself as well as prayers to God. Don't roll over and let them shove you away.

You do not need money to go to a shelter. This is not required. If you are ill enough the shelter may put you elsewhere. I had friends who were disabled and homeless put into nursing homes and rehabs for a short period of time, this may not be a bad thing in your case and could bring you some respite and calm to make decisions. One place you could call is Adult Protective Services too or your aging organization. Tell them you are ill and not being helped. Realize they may decide to hospital you and you will have social workers in your life, which may cause your criminally inclined adult children some angst but in your case if you are so sick this may not be a bad thing.

I am praying for you.

Anonymous said...

what is stopping me is the fact that there is only one womens shelter for the area, you have to provide your own food they wont feed you at golden house, the area I live in is so spread out that without a car I wont be able to even drive myself to a store, they offer no transport, they demand you get a job within 1 month or you will be booted out, so i need a miracle, I need a car and money or a kind soul willing to take me in, I have no friends because I was isolated early by my husband, you see I tried to leave him with the kids years ago and went to golden house, with no food or no car or offers of transport we started to starve, even then we didn't leave, we caught scabies and empataigo there and as I was returning back to the shelter from the ER with children that needed to be treated I was told to leave, we were booted out onto the street, me and 4 children, because of some lady claimed I was racist against Black people... after spending all I had left to get a cab to the ER and buy their medication I was forced to go back to my husband ... this is up north and we have a gigantic homeless problem even though there is so many homeless they refuse to build another shelter for them and don't mind seeing them out in the sub zero weather, I'm in catholic town, it's owned by the "Norbertine fathers" they own it up here so much that they control the airwaves TV radio
and censor them according to their will, the whole town shuts down for the football and lent and such things drive the economy, as you have seen and posted catholics don't mind the suffering of others, they think it's good for you, even unto death
so yes I can not afford a bus fare and have no refuge city, I rely on God to save me or take me home
Thank You for your prayers and supportive words, It's a comfort that others have taken so treacherous a journey and God had other plans for them, He will save me one way or another and I look with hope for that day
may God Bless you for your kindness and keep you in his tender mercies
love from
ozmliad

Anonymous said...

I looked up my local 211 and it was united way, they offer services to 60+ and I'm 51 so they have zero programs to help me, I'll call tomorrow to ask them in case there is something not listed, I looked up human services and it's the same 60+ and the only alternative is golden house, they don't believe in divorce in catholic town so no services are supported to fleeing women as a good catholic woman dies by her husbands hands
I'm positive if I took a bus I would need to get to another state it's that catholic here
Red Banks & Jean Nicolet Memorial
Red Banks, located on the shore of Green Bay, is the first documented point of contact between Europeans and the Indian tribes living along the Parkway. It is at this location, that French explorer, Jean Nicolet, is famously depicted greeting the Indians while donning a silk robe and firing two pistols.
the next city over is De Pere which translates to "rapids of the fathers"
you have no idea how much catholics own this state
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shrine_of_Our_Lady_of_Good_Help
The Chapel of the Shrine of Our Lady of Good Help is a Marian shrine, located within the Roman Catholic Diocese of Green Bay.[1] The chapel is in the community of Champion, Wisconsin, about 16 miles (26 km) north east of Green Bay, Wisconsin. It stands on the site of the reported Marian apparition to a Belgian-born woman, Adele Brise, in the year 1859.

The apparition was formally approved on December 8, 2010, by Bishop David Ricken, becoming the first Marian apparition approved by the Catholic Church in the United States. Bishop Ricken also approved the Chapel as a Diocesan Shrine, recognizing its long history as a place of pilgrimage and prayer.

you see i'm deep in the heart of pagan territory
this is why i'm a stoic type of personality and await a miracle or death


God bless you for listening and telling me to try things ... ill call united way personally tomorrow morning when everyone is asleep or gone
God willing I find a way out

with love from
ozmliad

Anonymous said...

Thank-you BB. The psalms are so very comforting in times of trouble. Thanks for the reminder. I needed that.
God Bless you - Sue